the only thing that is correct
only thing i can do properly
i tell myself to repeat after me
nothing is what you think
degradation and making me never feel enough those are my kinks
because all of my life i have been taught to think
if i give him what he wants, he’ll stay
if he asks me , i should give him his way
and its not that love has never not been about sex
but that i thought love was only sex
if his sexual needs are fulfilled
are currently being emotionally, physically, and verbally abused by a man
were emotionally, physically, and verbally abused by a man
being emotionally, physically, and verbally abused by a man but not realizing it
so all i've had as role models are
weaklings afraid to say no and testosterone and alcohol filled dickheads
so the only thing that is correct
is the tension when i walk into a room, walking on eggshells, and the fear
because it feels amazing to have freedom from your abusers
but once i did, i felt like a piece of me was missing
like they had to be there for life to be normal.
the only thing that seems correct to me is abuse