whenever I think about my future it's always clouded with worry. what if i'm not good enough and they hate me for it? what if i date someone and i hurt them so bad they are never the same? what if i one day have children and traumatize them or pass down all of my hereditary mental issues? what if they all hate me? what if i fuck up so bad they can't look me in my eyes? but it's ok because i can't control all of that right now. i can't know how my future will turn out and that terrifies me. but it also comforts me because it means it isn't too late to change.