FUCK GUYS BUT THIS IS TERRIFYING
LIKE YEA I WATCHED TFP AGAIN TO MAKE SURE I AM NOT DREAMING (but already on TLD i loved Euros so so much THOUGH SHE WAS THERE ONLY FOR A FEW SECONDS as herself AND THEN SHOT JOHN and I JUST FELT ATTACHED TO HER) BUT THEN THIS EPISODE HAPPENED AND I REALISED HOW MUCH I AM RELATED TO THIS:
1. I HAVE TWO BROTHERS, ONE YOUNGER, WITH SHERLOCK’S SYMPTOMES (EMOTIONAL AND STUFF) AND AN OLDER BROTHER WITH MYCROFTS SYMPTOMS (JUST MYCROFT YOU KNOW)
2. I AM TECHNICALLY THE SMARTEST OF MY FAMILY, NOT AS EUROS IS OF COURSE BUT ACCORDING TO THE TESTS AND PSYCHOLOGISTS I AM AND I ALSO HAVE TEND TO HURT PEOPLE EXTRA BADLY. like BADLY. And without any emotional reactions. I just don’t care really. I know it sounds weird and common but i could actually do it.
3. We have totally stupid names.
4. I also play play on violin and i tried to teach my brother.
5. i NEVER i repeat NEVER had friends. NEVER EVER.
My brother had, and still has, a best friend, no kidding, named VICTOR. T. They never let me play with them, but I always wanted to. Then i did many things, horrible things i regret and that are behind me.
6. My little brother always wanted to become a detective. The older one wanted to be someone really really important. And I? I wanted only gifts: music supplies, knives and guns. Things that had strategic purpose for me.
7. Little brother always wanted a dog - we never had one.
8. I used to sing a song, roughly translated from my language (mistakes are my own, child’s mistakes, I was five)
“Walked out of the town, me first, me first,
brought two (dead) people in bags,
on holy when the moons comes out,
before night rises, before night rises, before night comes here.”
- It was legitimely terrifying, it didn’t make sense and my parents freaked out. I remember it had some purpose and that purpose was not nice. (I didn’t kill victor yet don’t worry)
9. those boys look exactly - EXACTLY - like my brothers and victor.
Help. Please.
