to be completely honest though, i'd choose my best friend. hands down. even though i've only known him a couple months, he makes me incredibly happy. he's been there for me every single time i've needed him. he's never made me feel alone. there's not one time he's made me upset. maybe he's let me down a few times.. but that was never his fault. there is never a time that i haven't smiled when i'm around him. i need him in my life, because if i didn't have him in my life right now, i'd be so lost. i want him to be in my life now & i want him to be in my life in the future. 

what have you done for me..? i mean, i am so appreciative of everything you've done for me in the past.. helping me adjust to the move and helping me meet new people, i can't keep basing it on that .. & besides the fact that we were together for 3 & 1/2 years.. i don't remember the last time you made me happy. i don't remember the last time you tried to go outside the box for me. you made me feel so alone. sometimes, i thought i could die. you make me beg and plead for you to talk to me, when we were in fights. you make me do all the work, you make me feel so bad for the mistakes i made. yeah, i fucked up here and there.. but you shouldn't make me feel like complete shit all the time for it. you don't make me feel like you even want me in your life, sometimes..