#th22

Je Suis Malade - Lara Fabian

Uprising - Muse

Neuköln - David Bowie

Hi, friend!!

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

Yeah! Reece and I were listening to Rex Duodecim Angelus, and it reminded me of my partner in my Homestuck trash phase and dear friend, Meep!

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Aaaaaaa I was really hoping no one would ask this question because it’s a really hard one to answer! The reason why is that even though a lot of my early teenage years(which I just finished rip in peace) were awful, particularly 2012 and 2013 for a lot of reasons, there was so much good in them. For example, in both of those years, I became closer to Meep which was very, very important because I love zem very much! I also met another friend that I love. That person is you!!

If I had to drop one year, it would be 2012 because I was absolutely miserable for so many reasons, but that year would be so very painful to give up. Another year, though not quite as miserable, would be 2013 because someone did a lot of awful things to me that I still have to think about everyday. It was because of those terrible experiences that I can no longer be friends who were hurt by that person as well because of the reminder.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

FUCK no. I’m not going to write an essay comparing and contrasting, but goodness, my life is so incredibly different.

Major events that have changed my life since then, however, were me joining swim team and getting in shape/having an anger outlet, getting rid of toxic people, getting diagnosed with bipolar II and getting properly medicated parents divorcing, growing up x5 speed because of said divorce, losing my 4.0 GPA after getting straight A’s since I started public school 3 years before, sucking up my first F because it’s unrealistic for someone like me to take all honors and AP classes, getting a job, and I’m starting college early next year. These have all changed my life so much.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

There are 4 people in my life that I will never EVER forget! I consider them all to be my most best friends and I love them, and I could go on for ages why they’re important to me

My irl no homo wife Madalynne! @mount-wanahakalugi​

She has let me stick around since I met her in 8th, and I’ve had times where she and I weren’t friends(WHICH WAS MY FAULT I WAS 14 AND AN ASSHOLE NEVER BE 14 SKIP THAT YEAR), and it was awful! She’s my ray of sunshine when I’m lost in the dark, and she understands a lot of what I’m going through. Also, her bombastic personality makes her so much fun to be around. Even if we share a mutual relationship of teasing, she’s my best friend and I love her a lot!

Probably the most loyal person anyone could know would be my friend Meep. Ze stuck with me during the darkest part of my life so far, and I owe zir so much. Ze have always been there for me, and even though we don’t talk very much anymore, ze still checks in on me when I have meltdowns and still deals with my shit, and for that, I am forever grateful. I really wish I knew how to be a better friend for you because you deserve so much better than me. Meep, you’re gr9 and I love your forever! <3

Okay, I’m not just saying this because you’re the one who asked this, but my dearest friend Billie, you!!, I will never forget! You are a ray of sunshine, and you have so much positive energy I feel like you are actually the celestial body of the sun sometimes. Except, I don’t know how the sun could operate a computer without instantly melting it…We don’t talk as much, and that’s my fault. I’m sorry I’m not as good as a friend you deserve, and I’m so grateful you’re in my life. I love you!! <3

Reece is my forever friend and is seriously person #goals. He is always so positive, and genuinely cares about me. He always has something nice to say, and he’s absolutely hilarious. He has an uncanny way of making me smile and laugh, and no matter what, he brightens my day. Knowing that he’s a swimmer gave my the one little push I needed to join the swim team despite my lack of skill, and I discovered my love for the water and the butterfly stroke, and I’m forever grateful that I have an amazing swimmer to look up to. It seems like we can talk about ANYTHING, and it will go on forever. I love him so much, and I’m so happy that he’s in my life again.