Love Me Like You - Chapter 1: Breathe
Read Chapter 2: A Mess (Happy 4 U)
đpairing: Jake âHangmanâ Seresin x F!Reader
đsummary: High school and college sweethearts. Thatâs what the two of you were. And thatâs the keyword:Â were. What are you to do when you come face to face with the man that broke your heart three years ago?
â ïžwarning: mentions of alcohol consumption
đ¶ Song Inspiration 1: Breathe by Little Mix
đ¶ Song Inspiration 2:Â A Mess (Happy 4 U)Â by Little Mix
đ¶ Song Inspiration 3: Love Me Like You by Little Mix
If anyone has asked, your love story with Jake was a fairytale. It wasnât love at first sight. No. It was more like slow burn friends to lovers.
Growing up in the same small Texas town, you two always knew each other since elementary school. At first you were good friends. That was until Jake started hitting puberty come middle school.
Boys being boys is what people would tell you when he would tease you for not growing and staying short. The other girls in middle school started developing and teasing you too.
He quickly put a stop to them. In his eyes, he was the only one that could tease you because you were his friend.
Then came high school. Jake hadnât seen you during the summer since your family went to visit friends in Europe. He was expecting to see the you he was used to.
He was not expecting the height you now reached, much less the soft curves that came over the summer. âHi Jake!â
âWow! Youâre like a real girl now!â The punch to his arm takes him by surprise.
âJerk!â You huff and cross your arms, making him laugh.
âYouâre still so cute when you get angry. Tiny.â
âYouâre incorrigible Jacob Steve Seresin⊠The fifth!â
âYou did not just legal name me⊠Iâm sorry. Iâm sorry,â he says wrapping you in a hug. âStill perfect size to hug.â
You give in and hug him back. âSo are you Jakey.â
That first day of high school was the first day of the rest of your lives. It was inevitable that the two would try and date other people, but the little green monster of jealousy would make you mad at each other. That was until you both admitted your feelings for each other.
And so you two, despite being in totally different social circles, dated all through high school. When the time to pick colleges came, the two of you both wanted the same schools.
Jake, however, had a dream that he never told you about. He wanted to apply to the Naval Academy and so he did. He applied as soon as he turned 17. And every year he kept applying, improving his grades, until he was accepted just after his 21st birthday.
The same day he got accepted was your party for finishing your associates degree earlier than planned.
You were all dolled up and waiting for Jake to pick you up. When you hear him arriving, you rush out the door to meet him outside.
He takes his time getting out of his truck. He knows what heâs about to do is the worst thing in his life, but he feels like itâs still the best thing for the both of you.
Despite being anxious at his delay, something in his body language stops you from rushing to him.
He keeps the truck on as he approaches you at your front door. âHey doll⊠Can we talk?â He makes no attempt to kiss you in greeting, though he wishes to do nothing else but kiss you.
âIs everything okay Jake?â You ask.
âDoll⊠thereâs something that⊠I havenât told you everything about me. About what I want.â
âJake. We tell each other everything. What else is there for me to learn about you?â
âIâm leaving Texas. Iâm going to MarylandâŠâ he canât bring himself to look you in the eyes.
âMaryland? What? Why?â
âAnnapolis actually.â
At hearing the name, you knew. âYou joined the Navy? Thatâs amazing Jake!â You move to hug him but he takes a step back, causing the first crack in your heart.
âIt is. Iâve been applying since I turned 17 and got accepted today⊠I leave tomorrow. The sooner the better.â
âIâll help you to the airpo-â
âNo. You wonât. Iâll have my parents take me. Weâre done.â He pauses for a moment, knowing that what he says next will make you hate him but it was easier to have you hate him than to leave you with a false hope that he would return. âI need to end this before you expect me to give up my dream of being an aviator. We had fun and nice run⊠But high school relationships donât last. We never meant to last this long.â
The world around you stopped and started spinning counterclockwise at the same moment. You could feel your heart was in a free fall, awaiting for the hit that breaks it.
âI need to be single to focus on my career. Youâll only hold me back.â And thatâs the hit that sank your heart deeper into the fall and finally reached the spike-covered floor.
He doesnât give you time to say goodbye or even refute his statements. He turns and gets back in his truck and drives off.
Itâs safe to say that you missed your own party that night. As well as the attempts of your friends to try to get you to go out for brunch to know what happened.
It had now been a month since Jake broke your heart and left you. You decided to pack up the little reminders of him and put them away.
You decide to pack a second box of stuff to return to his parents. With that you write him a note:
I know things are never going to be the same for us. And I get it. Iâm not going to beg you to love me. We canât force what isnât meant to be right?
Anyways, Iâm leaving some of your stuff with your parents.
Before I end this letter⊠let me just admit that:
1: I can't erase your number and
2: I'm still sleepin' in your jumper
I kinda hate it that I love ya but Iâm trying to let you go.
I do wish you the best. Xoxo
You seal the note in an envelope and place it in the box to drop off to his parents. As you close the box, a splash of the whiskey youâre drinking falls onto the box.
âIf I call you, will you pick up?â You ask an invisible Jake. When you see thereâs no response, you take another long sip from the bottle. âGuess I'm drownin' in the liquor.â
A knock at your bedroom door pulls you away from the bottle. âCome in,â you slur loudly.
Cindy enters and takes you in. âOh babe,â she sits next to you on the floor and just lets you lay your head on her shoulder as you start crying again.
âI- He doesnât love me anymore!â You repeat over and over until you can barely speak. âI canât breathe without him Cin⊠I donât want to.â
âItâll be hard. But youâll be able to. Iâm here for you. And will continue to be here.â
And she was. She kept her promise. Day after day and week after week until months passed by and eventually you started returning to normal.
Every day that passed the pain would lessen. The future you once planned was amended. You had kept all your promises. The only one you broke was one you made to yourself. You promised yourself that you wouldn't reach out to him.
You did only once to wish him a happy new year.
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