#tfcawareness

and found himself dead.

I have a question. Ideally, if circumstances and odds weren't stacked against you and you were free to pursue whatever goals you wanted to and pursue whatever life styles or careers or what have you with your life, what would you be doing? Thank you for your answer.

— aleatoryalarmalligator

What a fun question, this fan thing never worked for me before, so I will answer in a post. Honestly I can say that for the most part, I have never set or had a goal. I guess if I were to say a goal, it's always been to be the best right now, at whatever. My outlook and attitude about life ... Be happy Now, and make life better in everything I did was not a goal. This did btw, drive my father crazy, He was an efficiency/planning/methods/ecology engineer manager kinda guy, that designed factories and who was completely goal oriented and driven. Making life better in everything I did, required me to be the best at everything I did, which required me to stay always focused to the tiniest of details and did not leave much "extra time" or luxury to have dreams per say. And because everything changes always, being completely aware of now, I can feel the subtle energies shift in everything around me, and has always offered the best perspective on seeing opportunities as they arise. From one perspective it could be said, my life is shit, because i have had every circumstance imaginable thrown at me over the past many years now, and my current situation is one that most people would not wish on an enemy let alone have to live through themselves.

I have to lean heavily though towards the perspective that everything is exactly perfect right now as it has unfolded. Trust me on this, If I was a planning person, snowballs chance in hell I would have planned things out this way. I could also say ... getting here has been very interesting.

Now that all being said, the way it appears that things are unfolding, with but a tiny little nudge from me ... perhaps travelling and living in a vintage westphalia, following the nice weather of the south and south west, managing this blog, meeting all sorts of interesting people, and see what unfolds along the way, till my final breath seems a nice idea.

Thank you for the fun question, and I hope I have answered it sufficiently, hey, if not... feel free to ask more?

Wishing your day is filled with smiles, hugs, love and loads of happiness. 

The illusions that we can control the external. The illusions, and lies, that we have NO control over the internal. We always have choice, and FULL control, over what we think, say and do. This, is not an illusion. --tfc

My freedom comes with her passing.

Her passing breaks my heart.