“today we will start with the chapter on light having dual nature. if anyone has any questions, go ahead,” your physics teacher informed everyone, scribbling the name of the chapter on the blackboard behind her.

you had a question regarding the previous chapter that your teacher had discussed yesterday but you were reluctant to raise your hand and ask a question.

she looked frustrated, or upset was it?

you tried to read your teacher’s facial expressions, trying to figure out if she was tired, angry, or annoyed. like if she raised her eyebrows, you assumed she was frustrated. if she spoke too fast, you thought she was impatient. but today there was no cue so after hesitating for a while, you raised your hand finally.

the teacher turned to you, “yes, y/n-kun?”

“is it okay if i ask a question?”

usually you are met with empathy to your tenuous behavior but today your teacher was having none of that. she sighed loudly, her hand clutching on the marker in her hand as she turned to you angry, “i told you that you don’t need to ask permission for a question. weren’t you paying attention?”

a frown laced your lips, your hands grabbing the hem of your shirt which was untucked owing to you almost missing the bus in the morning. you clutched at it.

“such a poor listener. i am tired of this kind of behavior,” she finished her rant before turning to the board and continuing with the lesson.

you bit your lip. everyone keeps treating you like this because you are a ‘poor listener’ a ‘daydreamer’. it is not like you are doing it intentionally, your mind simply wanders when a lot is going on simultaneously around you. like the mama bird on the tree right outside your classroom window, where you usually sit, flying back to her nest to bring food to her little chicks. it is not your fault that you are quick to sense things, picking up on others’ feelings, being able to tell if they sad or angry or happy. instead of seeing you as someone who empathized with others, they call you a creep and claim that they feel insecure, even uncomfortable around you.

your mannerisms often get labelled as ‘quirky’ owing to how you have no friends. first year of high school and still not one single person you could call a friend.

on the first day of the second year of high school, you came across the basketball team who walked by you like you were not just walking and would have crashed into them had you not stopped in time. quietly, you waited to let them pass by when a shorter blue haired boy passed by and while walking out of the practice room his feet got stuck in the threshold causing him to trip, his books falling on the floor.

you crouched down at once, helping him collect his books.

“thank you so much!” he offered, “sorry for the trouble.”

“oh, it is nothing. you are so anxious,” you replied casually before realizing what you had just said. thinking he would be creeped out too, you started to get up to leave. upset because he is cute.

“how did you know?” he asked, grabbing your wrist when you started to walking away.

you turned back at once, squirming slightly to his touch when he immediately let go of your hand.

“sorry.”

“no, um,” you started, your tongue darting out to moisten your now dry lips “i just know..”

“how?” he looked at you intrigued.

you could not help but smile at the change in his facial expressions, “i can feel it,” you shrugged.

“oh? wow that is like a superpower. i am anxious, we have a match tomorrow.”

“yes of course,” you nodded, pretending that you know about the match but you have never even seen one. hell you do not even know what is basketball or how it is played.

“it was nice talking to you, i will see you around?” he smiled, his eyes offering you a kind of warmth that you felt drawn to.

you nodded furiously at that, “of course. tomorrow!” you announced as you panicked. what else should you have said? he is cute, might as well watch his match.

and that is how you met your now boyfriend, kuroko tetsuya. he was not only a warm person with a heart bigger than an ocean but he is always so receptive about your sensitivities. he respects them and always tries to make life easier for you even through the smallest of his actions. even his teammates know that you often feel overwhelmed in groups so they always let you space to breathe and do your thing. sometimes you feel like you overburden them but tetsuya is quick to dismiss your worries. he always assures you that it is nothing and his friends really like having you around. 

his words, his soft touch always instill in you a different kind of warmth. the color you see is also cotton blue like his hair, his aura is beautiful and just so warm. sometimes at night when you think about it, it feels like you are going to combust from just how sweet tetsuya is, which leads you to think that you probably do not deserve him and then texting him something along the lines and then he reassures you again. it is a vicious cycle really, one which you want to break free from but we are working on it and tetsuya believes that you help each other grow.

as the teacher went ahead with the lesson without paying you mind, you craned your neck sideways to notice your boyfriend’s eyes staring right at yours. he was frowning because no one likes watching their significant other getting scolded.

after the class, he approached you and grabbed your hand before walking out.

“hey, where are we going? we have another class,” you said, walking behind him.

“there is time for that. lets take a break,” he offered before walking out to the ground.

“ahha?” you quirked up an eyebrow at the ambiguous reply and let him guide you.

the pair of you walked to the huge cherry blossom tree inside the school grounds. tetsuya sat down and patted the seat next to him.

you chuckled, bemused before sitting down beside him as the both of you laid back on the bark of the tree. your hand at the back of your head acted as pillow while he grabbed your free hand, intertwining the fingers.

you both watched the clouds floating in the sky, discussing what the shapes resembled.

“that is a rabbit,” tetsuya pointed at the sky.

“no! that is penguin!” you exclaimed, trying to point out the beak and flippers.

“but rabbits are cute,” tetsuya chuckled when he found no resemblance of the shape of the cloud with a penguin. he knew he was just looking at a blob of fluffy clouds whereas you were watching the world unfold in front of your beautiful orbs.

“penguins are cuter,” you grinned.

“yeah? then you are my penguin,” tetsuya replied. his free hand which was holding yours in his was brought near his lips as he left a chaste kiss against your knuckles.

︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶༉‧₊˚.

feedback is deeply appreciated.✨

masterlist | KnB masterlist | rules | ask box

- jaimie

Then, Jun slowly got equally as comfortable. They would practice together as much as possible, then when Tetsu went home they’d text and call to make up for not being there with each other. He truly was the more sappy one in the relationship, but the borrowed Shoujou on Tetsu’s shelves meant that maybe he wasn’t so far away himself.

It was around midnight when he got the first text. Tetsu knew it was Jun from the ringtone, but even that couldn’t make him stir from his attempted sleep. He listened to the chime for a few minutes before he gave up, opening his phone to at least mute it.

The chat opened as he unlocked the screen, showing multiple photos of the cats Jun’s sisters just adopted dressed for the holiday season. Unbelievable. No, it was completely believable. He tried to formulate a response, wracking his tired, sleep-deprived brain of some coherent response to send to his partner.

Nothing came out. Sighing, he put his phone on silent, and decided to wait until morning to entertain Jun.

Just as he was about to finally drift off, his screen lit up with a call. He stared at it, willing it to go away so he could sleep.

After the second call, he finally picked up his phone again, texting his boyfriend.

‘jun is something wrong or are you just lonely’

The three dots in the corner came and went for a moment before a text was sent.

‘first of all, you just ignored my cats dressed as santa, so fuck you. secondly,’

Tetsu let out another sigh, burying his face in his pillow as he prepared himself to not sleep for a while. He adjusted himself, laying on his stomach to look at his phone without holding it up over his face.

‘jun please I’m trying to sleep’

‘yeah I’m lonely fucker we haven’t called in forever and I miss you.’

‘oh?’

Tetsu chuckled into his pillow, hoping he wouldn’t wake Masashi up. His phone lit up again, but this time he grabbed the headphones off of his nightstand and answered.

“Jun,” he muttered fondly, talking just loud enough for the microphone to pick him up.

“Tetsu,” Jun grumbled back, most likely embarrassed.

“I miss you too, Jun,” Tetsu admitted. “But we’ll see each other in the morning at practice.”

“Why can’t you just dorm here? What kind of selfish bastard leaves his boyfriend on campus alone?”

“The selfish bastard who doesn’t want to make his parents pay to room him at a campus five minutes away.”

Jun huffed on the other end, the sound of a door closing reaching Tetsu’s ears.

“Are you outside?” he asked.

“Kudou is still up, I don’t need him listening to my conversation,” he said. “Is Masashi asleep?”

Tetsu hummed in confirmation. “I have my headphones in. He’s a heavy sleeper anyways.”

There was a stretch of silence as Jun made his way over to the vending machines, trying to not run into anyone on his way. Tetsu wanted to speak, just say something that would get Jun talking, but he closed his eyes and rested his head, listening to his boyfriend’s breathing.

“You still there?” Jun asked, voice a little louder now that he was alone.

Tetsu let out an “mhmm,” and Jun snorted.

“Don’t you dare pass out on me, I won’t be able to sleep.”

“Cute,” Tetsu mumbled. “Do you miss me that much?”

He smiled at the indignant noises Jun made in response, loving the sound of him getting riled up. “I’m sorry I couldn’t stay later today, I had to make sure Masashi got a good dinner. He has a game tomorrow.”

“If you cooked, he’ll be benched for the first half of it. Or toilet-bound.”

“I’m not that bad, Jun.”

The two of them spoke until Tetsu didn’t even realize how incoherent his words were. Jun did his best to decipher what he was saying, but eventually it was all humming and mumbling.

“Oi, Tetsu.” Jun finally said, barely getting a sigh in response. “Get some sleep. I’ll see you in the morning.”

this is the third time this week you are sneaking out of your dormitory. the previous two times were not that great, at least according to your roommate and best friend sana. she did not approve of your late night adventures and refused your invitation to join when you asked her on the first day of your rebellious phase. she does not even understand why are you suddenly such good friends with ichika, because that girl is the epitome of ‘what can go wrong in life’.

but tonight was different, tonight sana offered by herself to go out with you because she cannot handle you coming back to your dorm room late at night, wasted and retching out your stomach’s content.

you could not be happier when sana asked to go with you. ichika is not exactly the type of person you get along with well but she is the only person who can get you inside these clubs on a school night. having sana there with you would mean you would have at least someone to talk to.

you were quick to get ready; a white lace shirt on top of your black bralette paired with a black pencil skirt which reached just halfway through your thighs accompanied with a slit at the right side. from sana’s detested look, you could tell she did not approve of the dress code but she was not one to dictate your clothing choices or your friends choices for the matter. she just wanted to make sure you were safe because your worried boyfriend had contacted her two days explaining how you have been ignoring him since a week now. 

after she finished getting ready, the both of you climbed out of your first floor room using the pipeline which ran near your window. you jumped down on the grass bed of the garden when you had climbed down to a suitable distance. you landed on your feet, your knees crouched while the palms of your hands sustained the fall. you were about to get up when sana’s shaky descent caused her to fall on your back resulting in both of you falling on the ground as you both tried to muffle down your laughter in fear of drawing attention.

“get off me!” you whisper-yelled at her still unable to stop your giggle and sana was not doing that great either.

“i will have you know i am a model student not a model delinquent!” sana retorted laughing before getting off your figure and helping you up.

dusting off the grass from your skirt, you both headed towards the back entrance of the university.

︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶༉‧₊˚.

tetsu has been worried since the past few days due to your lack of reciprocity to his texts, you even missed the practice matches and he cannot make head or tail out of this. did he do something wrong? his eyebrows crinkled together as he tried to concentrate harder on what all he has done in the past month that might have ticked you off but honestly he cannot find anything. groaning, he held his head between his hands propped on his study table, his figure slacking on the chair.

kagami, his roommate, was lying on his bed reading a basketball magazine when tetsu’s soft groan caught his attention.

“she still has not replied?” kagami asked.

tetsu sighed, shaking his head a no.

“what did you do?”

“i don’t know! i mean i don’t remember if i have even done anything to get her angry. wait, i don’t know if she is angry or upset or sad or..,” he let another sigh, “i don’t know. i really wish she would talk to me.”

“then why are you waiting here? go over and talk to her.”

“now?” tetsu raised his head towards kagami, shooting him a confused look.

“yeah? you know her dorm room.”

“but it’s late kagami-kun, don’t think i will get entry.”

kagami face-palmed, his sweet naïve friend really has a lot to learn, “kuroko, you know you can just go through the back garden, it is directly connected to their windows.”

“oh, really?”

kagami nodded, “yep. now go get your sorry ass over there and talk to her.”

tetsu got to his feet at once, picking up his jacket hanging on the back of the chair before heading out of the room.

“dumbass,” kagami mumbled getting back to the manga in his hand that he hid under the basketball magazine.

tetsuya made his way through the back garden that connects the girl’s dormitory with the boys one. the iron gate was locked but it was so low, even tetsu could easily cross over it.

while getting down from the gate on the other side, his eyes fell towards your window where he saw two figures climbing out on the window sill. from his distance, he could not tell the faces apart so he started jogging closer.

‘are they intruders?’ tetsu thought, worry clouding his mind as he was ready to call the cops but on moving closer, he realized it was you and sana. 

but why are you two climbing out the window so late at night? he watched as sana fell on you causing the two friends to erupt into laughter. tetsu could not help but chuckle at that himself, your smile was endearing like that, it always makes him giddy.

he watched quietly as you both got up and walked away towards the exit. a part of him wanted to talk to you, maybe even ask you where you were headed so late at night but he could not bring himself to interrupt in your happiness, what if you get upset again on seeing him?

sighing, tetsuya made his way back to his dorm.

“so fast?” kagami cooed on his friend’s dejected figure walking back into the room within seven minutes of his departure.

“she went out.”

“huh?” now it was kagami’s time get confused.

“yeah, she left with sana-kun.”

“where?”

“i don’t know, i did not talk to her, i just left.”

if beating a dent into your head with your palm was possible, kagami would have a huge dent on his forehead by now, “why did you not talk to her?!”

tetsu shrugged sitting back on his chair, “she seemed happy..”

“wha-” kagami started but stopped when he realized tetsuya was not done with his sentence.

“without me.. even happier.”

kagami sat up, “kuroko, you know that is not true. she loves you.”

tetsu nodded, “yeah.. i know. i am going for a walk.”

kagami sighed and nodded, “sure buddy.”

︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶༉‧₊˚.

sana stopped you from downing another drink, you were already wasted enough to be thinking straight and certainly enough to be walking straight.

“you will get sick!” she snatched the shot glass from you.

“no!! give it back,” you whined, pouting, “please. i will be a good girl. i want it.”

sana shook her head shooting you a glare before keeping it away, “i don’t know how i will get you back to hostel in this condition..” she trailed off searching for ichika but the latter was nowhere around.

you stood up to walk to the bar but tripped due to a misstep of your heel, landing you on your bum with a thud. sana was quick to help but you kept giggling and had lost control on your movements so you were heavier to lift.

“come on babe, you gotta work with me here,” sana mumbled under her breath trying to help you up but you kept giggling.

“fine. i give up,” sana stood up taking out her phone and dialed a number, “hey. sorry about calling so late but can you pick y/n up from ___ pub? thanks.”

︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶༉‧₊˚.

tetsuya rushed inside the pub, the fluorescent lights gave him a headache but his eyes were quick to search for you. on locating you, he hurried to your side.

“thank god,” sana exhaled on seeing him and stood up, “i will leave her with you then?”

tetsuya gave her a nod and leaned down beside you, “y/n-san?”

his voice brought you out of your reverie, his soft, gentle, sweet voice.

“tet-tetsu-kun? what are you doing here?” your hands involuntarily wrapped around his arms.

“i am here to take you back,” tetsu replied helping you up.

“bu-but i don’t understand, where am i?” you clutched your head as it threatened to explode. you were not in the wasted phase anymore and the hang over was dawning on you now. tetsu’s voice alone is enough to sober you up.

“you came to a pub with sana-kun, remember? you both sneaked out of the window,” tetsu replied to your queries all the while wrapping his jacket around your shoulders and getting a hold of your waist to help you walk.

you nodded as some of it came back to you, a small chuckle left you when you remembered sana crash landing on you but another realization wiped away that smile.

“how do you know?”

tetsu avoided eye contact and started walking with you on tow, “i-uh sana-kun told me.”

“no she did not. i heard what she said,” you looked at him, your eyes yearning to see his face. yeah, it has been too long since you saw his gentle features and it was your fault only.

tetsu walked you out of the pub and helped you inside a cab before getting on through the other door.

“tell me,” you urged him after he closed the door and told the driver the address.

“i came to see you and saw you sneaking out,” tetsu let out defeated, he can never say no to you.

“why? are you okay?” your hands were quick to do a quick checkup on him for any post-game injuries.

tetsu got a hold of your hands, holding them securely in his, his thumb grazing over the expanse of your skin, “i am. but are you?”

“wh-what?” you stuttered. so your actions are out to bite you in the ass.

“you are ignoring me since last week! you have not replied to my texts and i heard from sana-kun that you were drinking out every now and then. what happened, y/n? please tell me. i am worried.”

you bit your lip, your eyes trained at your feet, “i thought you did not want me.”

tetsu’s eye widened at that, “why would you think that way?”

“when momoi senpai came to visit your team last week, everyone kept gushing about her and how pretty she has grown.. and just.. you were also talking to her and she is your ex.”

“do you not want me to talk to her? i will not then.”

“no, i mean, i know she means no bad and you guys are only friends now but i cannot help feeling insecure when she practically has a figure of a sex goddess or something.”

tetsu eyed you unsure, “a sex goddess?”

“yeah, no i mean i am not saying she is not nice as a person, she is!”

“okay.. why are you feeling insecure?”

you were growing impatient with your boyfriend’s inability to understand some social situations, “i don’t know tetsu-kun but you never tell me anything. no matter how i dress up, i have never heard a compliment from you. i love you, i really do but i wish you were a bit more vocal,” you could feel your eyes tearing up.

tetsu pulled you flush against his chest, connecting his chin to your forehead, his hands brushing your hair, “i love you too, y/n-san and i think you are the most beautiful person i have ever laid my eyes on. your figure is perfect as it is and maybe that is why i am not so vocal about it. i got everything in you, found all my answers in you, saw all the beauty in you and somehow forgot to appreciate it. but yes, you are right. that is not how it works, i should be appreciating your efforts, your beauty, your grace, your smarts and of course; you. i love you and i never want you to feel anything negative about it. no one take me away from you and i will try my level best that no one steals you from me, although i would prefer if they don’t start fighting me but for you, i would fight them too,” you chuckled through your tears at that which were free falling at that point from his heart touching words. he continued on, “you are the only one for me, always and forever. know that i am always here for you, no matter the circumstances.” he finished with a kiss to your hairline.

you could not help but sob on his shirt, your fingers never leaving their grip of him, fearing he would just dissipate into thin air. throughout the rest of the ride, tetsuya kept reassuring you that he was going nowhere. 

by the time the cab stopped in front of the university premises, you had composed yourself and got down as tetsu paid the driver.

“you know i was thinking..” tetsu trailed off, his hand in yours, your fingers intertwined as you both walked around the porch and headed towards the back garden.

“mhm?” you hummed, swinging your intertwined hands.

“maybe i should show you just how much i crave only your body.”

you stopped swinging your hands and stopped in your tracks at that, almost as if the beat of your heart also stopped, “sh-show me?”

tetsu nodded, leaning in to kiss you, his hands now wrapping themselves around your waist.

︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶︶༉‧₊˚.

feedback is deeply appreciated.✨

masterlist | KnB masterlist | rules | ask box

- jaimie