#testing labels

i was 14 when i told my parents that i am pansexual, they were totally fine with it.

i was 15 when i hinted that i am not within the binar gender spectrum. 

i was 16 when i came out as gender fluid to my parents and started using a different name. i also started testing out different pronouns with my best friend.

with 16 i realised that i am polyamerous. only my current partner knows. 

with 17 i started presenting myself as male on the internet. started to realise that i am male.

with 17 i came out as gender fluid to my classmates. the name i used at home was transferred into my school life.

with 18 i had my first bf, he never understood my struggles, demanded me to present female, was emotionally manipulative. he helped me realise that i am indeed male. as much as i hate him, he also was big help in the process of finding myself.

with 18 i bought my first binder, but i have been binding since i am 12 (sports bra method). the day my binders arrived i came out to my parents. they were shook.

with 18 i met my partner, he is the most supportive and awesome person i ever met. i love him so much. 

i am still 18. a lot has happened. but i can say one thing: i am in a better place.