#temp thoughts

The more I look back on it, this year was full of so many ups and downs between school, work, and my personal life. There were a lot of changes and a lot of unexpected things outside of my control, for better or worse. But also a lot of personal realizations + reflections.

On the bright side, I've found more self-confidence and more firm footing in terms of my place in my community and who I want to be, which is crazy because I've had a lot of difficulty thinking about the future. I think the political climate has definitely pushed me towards the direction I need to go in.

So we're going to keep working towards that. And I'm going to commit to making more things. I'm closer to figuring out a process that works for my brain and low energy (and I'm closer to getting an ADHD diagnosis! Bless!), and I want to keep making things and get better at what I love to do.

Resolutions

art like I've never arted before (ArtFight PROPERLY)

write more & read more (at least 10 non-uni books)

at least 3 covers (UTAU or otherwise)

finish composing one song

get back into the theater scene on campus

commit to learning another language

try weightlifting

(+ maybe make that PNGtuber)

I mean, I have definitely seen content of Norton being a grounding presence for Alice, especially when she's especially anxious/biting her fingers or being obsessive over her work. And I mean, obviously she grew up with more material wealth and property than Norton and can introduce him to things barred from him by power, class, and wealth.

But especially after CoY, I'd love to see the two of them exchanging travel stories (the Balkans!), or Norton reminding Alice not to throw herself into danger, or Norton teaching Alice about the ways people in poverty make do and survive, helping her break down any preconceived notions/biases she still might be inherently holding onto. She's kind and she has good intentions, but Alice still is far from a completely 'objective' reporter, not that there is such a thing. And while she can travel and interview people and learn about how the lives they've lived, it's different when you're forming a personal relationship with someone and not acting as interviewer/interviewee.

Both of them have experienced unique pain and suffering, and they both have a lot they can learn from each other. They balance each other really well as characters, and it's not as fun or realistic to explore only one side of a relationship imo.

There's no pre-existing media that you can explain or show to others so they understand your vision or why you're writing about certain themes.

All just stuff from your own head you have to convey in a way that makes sense, otherwise you just look insane (or maybe that's just me.)