@teddaby,γJun-heeγβγ[borrow.] sender wears receiver's shirt/sweater while they have sex.
Jun-hee contains multitudes.γItβs a stupid fucking way to put it;γshe contains beauty,γof course,γand a cool detachment that makes you want to chase her more.γMost importantly,γsheβs yours,γembraced in a relationship that indicates some measure of who she belongs to.γYou,γman who has never been able to own anything,γwho has known dissatisfactory childhood conditions rocketing you into immense desire to make something of yourself.γBringing home money,γstability,γhaving someone or something to provide for as means of bolstering your own ego.γYou really fucking love her for that,γthat among a lot of thingsγβγthat she seems to need you just as much as you (want to) need her,γthat your relationship is a marker of status,γa blemish to be left upon the earth.γYou are a good boyfriend.γYou kiss her and hold her and tenderly stroke her face,γpetting her hair whenever her countenance shifts with the implications of emotions you donβt know how to handle.γOr maybe itβs a lack of desire to handle them.γYou can never tell the difference.
Right now,γsheβs gorgeous.γSheβs clad in only your t-shirt,γwhich envelops her frame just enough to entice youγ(not that youβve ever been the heftiest guyγ/γthe pitiful little thing punched down onto by those above him in the pecking orderγ/γyou knew things would be different,γone day,γwhen you had money and status).γShe makes you feel better about yourself,γand maybe you should feel worse about that fact.γYou donβt.γβPretty girl,βγyou coo,γlining yourself up with her entrance.γForce of your hips invites you within,γand sharp inhale delineates your already-blooming pleasure.γβAll mine, jagiya.βγYou love Jun-hee,γobviously.γThese opportunities her mere presence affords you means the world;γsweet little thing to rely on you,γbe it money or attention,γsomeone to look after her.γYou are a good boyfriend.γMaybe you could even see a real future with her.γA family.