I Thought We Were Done, But I Guess Not...More Draaaamaaa Coming Right Up!Ā I Know Itās Long But There Will Be TEA SPILLED. :-) Hope you read it all the way to the end...
Below is how ContemplatingOutlander responded to my post pointing out that the reason the MAJORITY of NST have her blocked is HER treatment of them, and my suggestion that she take some time for self-reflection.Ā
Let me offer some more TRUTHS and some clarification that should have been done a long time ago. Here we go...
CO, a wise person knows that there are 3 sides to every story: hers, his, or in this case, hers again and the truth. So, whatever myĀ āformer friends and acquaintancesā have told you is one sided and only from their perspective. Obvi. I would like to clarify some things I have kept my mouth shut about for far too long. Here they are...
You donāt have the complete picture, CO. But thatās what happens when you only listen to people who have a vendetta--their hate clouds their judgment and ability to be completely honest. I am not on myĀ ā4th or 5th inner circle.ā I still have my ORIGINAL Twitter DM chat inner circle I have had for 3 years, itās just missing a few backstabbing members, with whom I parted ways going on 2 years now. And thatās who you have talked to, not the people who have had my back this whole time. If the āformer friends and acquaintancesā you talked to were right about me, and I was this horrible and deceitful person, there would be NO ONE left in my inner circle, YETĀ they are still with me all these years later. And as a result of their continued loyalty and real friendship over the last 3 years, I have recently shared things with them that I have not shared with anyone. They know my real name, and they know the identity of my original industry source, among other things. No one else does.Ā
You know whoās not in the group anymore? Someone with whom, at the other membersā pleading, I had to have regularĀ ātalksā in DMs because the group members were so tired of her controlling manner in chat (no surprise that sheās one of your favorite people from that group...birds of a feather, I guess). Someone whose stressful job and tough situation with her son started to affect her thinking and made her very paranoid. Despite me showing her concrete proof that negated who she thought I was in real life, she didnāt believe me. Someone whose physical health problems caused her to have mental health problems and become very angry and lash out at me. Someone who was the source for the private Tony pics at the Outlander premiere in April 2015 and whose identity I have continued to keep private, even to my own detriment, yet she has had no problems betraying me. (note: this person is not my Tony family source. Thatās someone else).Ā Two individuals who run a well known and popular Outlander fan Twitter account whose identity I have also kept private because they donāt want the fandom to know that they run the account, and that they were in my inner circle. Someone who said she was married and rich and turned out to be totally lying,Ā yetĀ she had no problem badmouthing me behind my back, accusing me of lying about MY identity. And various other women, who although they were allowed to be completely Anonymous in the group (their Twitter names were Anon and in group they did not divulge personal info about themselves) yet somehow I was chastised by group members for not sharing my real identity. In addition, for a short period, I stupidly let into group a former shipper who I KNEW was playing both sides. But I guess the info she could divulge about her ex shipper friends was just too juicy to pass up, so she joined for a bit. And, as I knew would happen, ended up being a huge back stabber, but that was not a surprise. I knew better.Ā Ā
CO, THOSE are the assortedĀ āformer friends and acquaintancesā who have talked to YOU, to Extreme Shippers, etc about me. Ya think they might be a wee biased and unreliable in retelling their version of the truth? Um, yeah. But despite me KNOWING that some of them have talked shit about me to YOU, to Extreme Shippers, to anyone who would listen and REVEALED some things we all swore we would take to the grave, IĀ ābig, bad Purvā have NOT betrayed THEIR confidence. What Iāve written above is the most I have ever shared. And I do feel badly, and somewhat cringe that Iām doing it, even though Iām not revealing anyoneās name, or any identifying details, but this is how far Iām being pushed. CO you have NO idea what you are stepping into. The amount of secrets I have kept private is staggering. Is that something that a the terrible person Iām portrayed to be would do? NO. A terrible person, the minute her ex friends started spilling tea, would have spilled right back, and blasted all their private info too. BUT I didnāt do that. Because Iām not a terrible person. Do you know how much easier my life would have been if I had told everyone who my Tony pic source was and posted all those pics publicly? But I didnāt. Despite being stabbed in the back by my former friends. Do you know how many secrets I could have shared that would have cleared my name in certain situations, and prevented some of the attacks on me? A LOT. But I didnāt, because doing so would have entailed betraying peopleās trust and despite all my faults, I wasnāt willing to do that.
So, CO, when you make veiled threats insinuating that myĀ āformer friends and acquaintancesāĀ ādidnāt appreciate being playedā and therefore they may continue to betray me, what you donāt realize is THEY PLAYED ME. And they PLAYED YOU. They didnāt tell you the WHOLE TRUTH. They KNOW that even though they are privy to many of my secrets, I ALSO HOLD ALL OF THEIR SECRETS--secrets they didnāt tell you. Once we parted ways I assumed we would be at a detente. If they tried to take me down, they knew they would come with me. I underestimated how dangerously they liked to live, or how emotionally unstable some of them turned out to be. And so they continued to betray me and I SAID NOTHING. But if you or anyone else continues to push me, that will change. Enough is enough. All their secrets and their names I have kept under lock and key, THATāSĀ my insurance policy, should they, or YOUĀ choose to take this further.Ā
The same goes for Extreme Shippers who also talked to myĀ āformer friends and acquaintances,ā and like to talk shit about me. It was always understood that there is also a detente there, since ES know that everyone knows most, if not all, their REAL IDENTITIES. The only ES who is Anon is Jess. Any Extreme Shippers dox me, find me, find out my real identity, and try to mess with my RL and all I gotta do is go down the list of NON-ANON ES: Lauren, Julia, Kim, Nipuna, Sherri, Leslie, Deirdre, Trish, Erin, Angie, Stephanie, Marcy, Suzanne, Lynn, Jo, among MANY others. Iām sure fellow ES wouldnāt want to be the catalyst for that.Ā So THATāS my insurance policy on that side. As for Puffy, I hear sheās still at it with herĀ āinvestigationā of me and fleecing her minions of their hard earned money, I stopped looking a long time ago. She can keep going, but I hope she knows the minute she finds my real identity and messes with my RL, her bestie, co-owner of her blog, and partner in crime, Amanda E.S.H will be getting a knock on her door from the authorities. THATāSĀ my insurance policy on that side.Ā Ā
For now youāve been splashing around in the kiddie pool, CO, you want to get in the deep end with the big girls? Be prepared to SWIM. Again, I suggest you STAND DOWN, Doc. You blog on your blog and leave me alone, and I will blog on my blog and leave you alone. Like a fellow NST said,Ā āno one is drowning kittens here.ā FandomĀ isnāt supposed to be so serious, this is supposed to be FUN. Iāve been playing nice, and I will continue to do so. I am nice, to people who are nice to me. But do not mistake my continued silence all these years for weakness, you push me too far and the bitch Iāve been made out to be, akaĀ āBig bad Purvā WILL come out. Mark me.Ā
PS: Yes, I have people here on Tumblr who I talk to in DM regularly and consider my friends and inner circle here. That group is separate from my original Twitter DM chat, who I still maintain. None of the people in the Twitter group chat overlap with the people in Tumblr DMs. Two totally separate groups. And I appreciate all of you so much. :-*
We done now? *cracks neck, shakes it off* Okay drama session is over, can we go back to some actual fun now? JFC.