#teamnofriends

I find myself on tumblr now because I have come to the realization that 75% of the people on my Facebook are not interesting to me and we have absolutely nothing in common. You know the people I actually know in real life bore me to death. My interests most likely bore them as well. INTJ —> I don’t even really like people at all to be honest. I’m comfortable in my own room reading or taking the 20th online course for the month cause I constantly have to learn something new and master it. Actually, obsess over it until something more fascinating comes along. 80’s or symphony music in the background. I enjoy intelligence and class. I don’t understand Ebonics and I am extremely annoyed by trashy people. OCD, my home is meticulously clean & everything has its place. I mean everything ... if you move something I know. My list of pet peeves is so long I could make a book. I will say, chomping on ice loudly is at the top though. I’m extremely artistic and smart naturally. I’ve never had to try hard to be creative or master anything academically. Basically I’m what they call a nerd with an above average IQ. I do put on a good show in public by pretending to enjoy others company. I’m polite and considerate. Although the entire time I’m waiting for them to stop talking so I can go home. This is why I have no friends. I’m okay with it. The company of others is not a necessity. As you can see by this post, it’s just a burden to me really. Why am I even writing this? Because maybe .... just maybe I’m not the only one like this out there.

On Friday I turned 27 years old. I’m officially in my late 20s. My best friend Frankie literally didn’t even text me until like 11:50 pm and that is not even an exaggeration. She moved to Texas before her birthday and I still made sure to reach out to her. She got to go out and do stuff for her birthday because like all her friends are in Texas. I’m starting to feel like her and Ben literally moved there just to start a new life, and honestly I get it. I feel like that sometimes. No one ever wants to do anything. Like literally nothing. 

Last night we were supposed to go to our friends Jess and Bobby’s so Nick could help pull a motor, but they canceled last second. Nick also told me that yesterday him and Bobby had to run somewhere to drop a part off or something and Bobby asked Jess to watch Carson for a few minutes and I guess she made a face. She also didn’t know that Nick was standing there and saw the face she made so Nick said don’t worry about it we will just take him, and she was like no no it’s fine trying to act like she didn’t just have an attitude. I have a real problem with that.They’re going to have a baby in December and she is going to realize how hard it is to find help with your kid. What makes me upset too is that I have also asked her to watch Carson in the past too and she has. So how did she treat him? She also has made up excuses to not watch him as well then I find her at Issas with my kid. Like oh thought you had to work today?