Things I need to get off my chest before it collapses on itself, feat. Myself.
On the fith of this month, two days ago now- at The house of blues in Orlando - I saw 3teeth, CKY and H. I. M. Play live for there bang & whimper farewell tour.
I didn't cry then, but now, I feel like there is a sadness in my heart that I haven't felt in a very, very long time.
I first heard of His infernal majesty when I was around, fifteen.  Of course I had seen the symbol before , seeing as my teenage years lined up perfectly with the sweet-spot in the 'Bam is god amongst rawdy teens' era. But despite that on top of even having a few friends whom where rather fond of them, I still didn't get into them until I happened across ' Vampire heart '. I automatically liked the song. Soon after that I bought the 'Dark light ' album.
I had never experienced liking every single song on a album before that.
Down the slippery slope I go.
That very same album carried me through My first bad relationship in which I slept 90% of that summer away with Dark Light on replay. Ironically the only thing keeping my teen-angst filled mind going was the update progress for "love: In theory and practice. "
That was around 2009.
It's 2017, and Every last member of H. I. M. Has carried me, through some of my darkest times. My deepest emotions. I'm sure a lot of you understand what I mean when I say Valo's lyrics resonate with me in a way that makes me feel like I'm okay.... Like it's okay...even when it's not.... and a melancholic sadness for Ville and what troubles his soul.
It's always the safty of their music that I run to when all else fails, seeking the comfort I felt with them as a young teenager.
Saying goodbye to H. I. M. As a band fills me with old sorrows, but it soothes it ever so slightly knowing that there music - and love metal will always be.
I wish nothing but goodness and love for my boys . Ville, you and your band where the first to touch my soul and no one will ever come close to having my love and respect like you and yours. Like many others you guys, H. I. M. As a whole - have a part of me no one else will ever have.
Have a safe and successful rest of your tour- rock on my loves!
( and yes, I still know every word to all of the Dark light album 🦇)
