Second Thoughts "TRR" "Choices Fanfic" Part 1.
Pairing: Drake x MC.
Summary: Kate finds herself having second thoughts about her past decisions.
- Kate pretends to be already asleep when she hears Liam entering their bedroom. She left earlier than usual before the ball even ended. She is feeling so drained, she doesn't understand what's wrong. Something's just not right. She wasn't feeling quite okay for a while now. It's like something's missing but she can't put her finger on it or more like she doesn't want to. Though the thing is starting to eat her inside out. She has been thinking about another man more than she would like to admit. Seeing him invite Kiara to dance with him when he never really liked to dance in the first place. Well, except when she invited him to dance that one time which really got her worried. Is he falling for Kiara? Has he moved on that easily? They haven't talked to each other directly since she chose Liam and back then she was really happy. She has it all, all of Cordonia is hers. Even the people of Cordonia admire her. She is the queen. She dresses beautiful expensive dresses and jewelry like every girl's dream, so why is she not feeling okay?
She felt Liam slide in bed next to her then his arm wrapped around her waist. She didn't like the fact that she didn't like it. She wasn't comfortable with him touching her like she used to before and she is hating herself for it. What's wrong with me? She started feeling like she is suffocating. Like there's no air left in the room. She needs to get out of here even if for a little while. She waited a while before she started hearing his snores. He always falls asleep fast, tired of the pressure on his shoulders every day. Especially since she wasn't much help lately. Trying to avoid her duties as much as possible. She has started feeling selfish but she can't help it.
She gently removed his arm and placed it next to him causing him to move a little. She wrapped the robe around her body. Then she slowly, so slowly made her way to the door. Just when she placed her hand on the door handle-
"Kate? Is everything alright? Where are you going?" Liam said with a sleepy voice
She took a deep breath "Sleep, baby. I'm just gonna eat a bite then comeback" She said giving him a small smile.
"Do you want me to come with you?" He asked already half asleep.
"No, don't worry. I'll be back before you know it. You sleep and get some rest" then she left the room.
She was making her way to the garden before she heard noises coming from the living room. She quietly peeks at the room when she sees his frame infront of the firepit with a glass of whiskey in hand. His back is facing her as he stared intensely into the fire not moving.
"Shouldn't you be already asleep, your majesty?" He suddenly said without even moving a muscle causing her to jump. How did he even know I'm here? She questioned herself. She winced at the name. She missed the way he used to call her.
She swallowed hard before she made her way inside the wide room, slowly taking hesitant steps towards him.
" I- I couldn't sleep!"She said nervously. This is the first time they are alone since that night they spent together in her hometown New York, before she broke his heart and chose Liam. It's been almost a year ago.
His lips were pressed together in a thin line as the fire glow illuminated his handsome features. She missed him. She could already feel butterflies in her stomach like when your high school crush finally recognizes you. He kept his gaze settled on the fire. Avoiding making any eye contact with her.
"Hm..." He said softly.
There it is, the awkward silence between them. Even though it isn't very hot in the room she started sweating. He knew very well how to make her be in a weakend state around him without crossing any boundaries and it's so frustrating. It felt like he is the king and she is the commoner. Though after everything she has done, she is the one who put herself in this position. She is guilty infront of him. She led him on, made him fall more and more in love with her then like the selfish woman that she is, she chose the king 'his bestfriend'.
She didn't want this moment to end even though it isn't in her favor. After all it's probably the only time she will be alone with him for a while or who knows maybe ever.
She has to say something "I...I don't know what's happening to me lately. I haven't been able to sleep for a few days now..." She said swallowing hard again.
It took him a while to answer "Something's on your mind lately?" He said understanding exactly where she is going.
"I...I guess. But I don't know what it is. I...it's... I don't know what's wrong" She said looking down.
"I think you know but maybe you don't want to admit it to yourself. Whatever it is, avoiding it won't make it easier, it makes it harder" He said, as if he is an expert in this kind of situation, though his eyes are still focused on the fire.
"I...I guess I just feel so...unhappy!" She said almost in a whisper. Ashamed of saying that to him. Cause they both know that she deserves it. She has no right to complain about it, after all it was her decision.
His silence scared her, he didn't say anything at first causing her heart to throb hard and fast inside her chest. He gulped half the liquid inside the glass.
"What's making you unhappy? Is Liam treating you poorly? Cause as far as I'm concerned, he is treating you like a queen. Besides You got everything you ever wanted, how can you be unhappy?" He shook his head taking another gulp of the glass.
"Maybe I don't know what I want" with that his eyes darkened.
"What do you want, Mckenzie?" Her breath catches in her throat at the mention of her last name on his lips as his dark eyes met her terrified ones. Though she can see that there's hurt and pain, a lot of hurt and pain behind those dark eyes and it makes her burn from inside. It's like his eyes are piercing her soul, like he can read her every thought. The strength of his gaze caused her to take a step back.
"I..." It's like her tongue got tied, she couldn't speak anymore. She couldn't say anything. She has no right to say anything. It was pretty clear what she was getting at and he knew that this day would come. His gaze turned unreadable. Dark eyes. Intense gaze as he started taking steps towards her slowly.
She felt her body freeze. He has her now under his full control. She felt sweat running down her neck as he neared her more and more until there's only one inch left between them. She could already inhale his familiar scent wanting to rub her face in his chest. Though she was still standing still, frozen, staring deeply in his unreadable intense eyes. She sucked in a sharp breath when his gaze sweeps over her face until they settle on her lips. She felt like an invisible force is pulling her to him. Like gravity, but before she could move he bent down and placed the glass of whiskey behind her on the table. She felt the blood rise in her cheeks as tears threatened to fall. He looked her in the eyes one last time before making his way outside the room.
"Sleep well, your majesty".
