#team values

Senior <b>Credit</b> Analyst/<b>Credit</b> Analyst

So I have this team. Well, more like a group of people who work together, you could hardly call us a team. Long story short, I feel like I'm the one bring the team down and more unlike a team when I'm trying my best to make the team become one. I was thinking about this our last meeting, and I just feel like I'm doing something wrong and causing more conflict. As team leader, I want things to go a certain way, that had worked in the past to get things done, without much fuss. I don't know what happened. I feel like everyone had turned on me, but I really don't want to quit. I've been here since the beginning, I can't leave now. I need this team more than they need me and I'm not sure what to do. Emotionally, I'm going through other things too. I was going to quit. I was going to be done. We had a disagreement that caused a separation in the team. It seems whenever there is an argument, I'm somewhere in the middle of it. But I'm always trying to fix it. When there is work to be done, I always give myself the bulky when I can. If something has to get done, yet there is something else, usually more fun, happening at the same time, I let everyone else go and I'll stay and do it. I try to make sure things are being done, fair, and in everyone's good favor, yet it doesn't always seem like that. But I'm trying and it seem like I'm just making it worse when looking back. But I can't leave, I won't leave. I'm selfish, I need this team. But I feel like I'm working alone. I feel like we all have different goals of what we want to happen. I feel like the team isn't as important to the others as important it is to me. It probably isn't. If I bring it up with them, everyone just gets annoyed and just looks at me as if it's me  who has the problem. As if it's me who is the problem.