Vent fanfic- (OOC WARNING!!!) Septem!!!
I'm feeling depressed- so imma make a vent fic where Septem comforts you!!!
Heads up! This fic will be where I(Mari) pour out most of my sadness into- so if you think it doesn't comforts or sits right with you. And I'm not that good at writing fanfics, so if you think my writing is pretty bad- I understand you and I deeply apologize!!!
Your gender-neutral btw!!! I'll be using they/them for this fic
Septem noticed something off about you recently... You didn't eat much, and even if you did- You'll forcefully sallow the food down your throat. It's honestly pretty noticeable, anyone can point it out and say-
"You don't like it? Why aren't you enjoying the food? Is there something wrong?" Septem did comment on it a few times, but you always brushed it off and give him that soft-but not-so genuine smile you had. But he didn't comment on it any further- since he can feel it. Deep in his chest. Whenever you two stay in his office, garden, kitchen etc, he'll feel that deep sorrow. That can't be removed by any spell.
You and Septem were in his office, he's figuring out on how to save this dying garden with your help. But your words have been pretty blunt and slow, unlike your usual energy. Sometimes not even looking at his face, which he feels a slight tinge of melancholy by your response. It has been like this for a few days... You were acting pretty standoff-ish, quiet, disassociated from reality, and blunt. Often fidgeting with your hands, hair, clothes, etc. He noticed it all, but today pushed it.
He decided to comment on your behavior, how've you been more quiet usual, the sorrow in his chest that wasn't from him. But all in a soft-bantering type of tone. He closed his eyes and started speaking again "You've been acting pretty off lately Y/N. Your mannerisms have toned-down, you keep fidgeting every-time, you don't finish your plate- and if you did- You'll force yourself to eat. Which I dislike, it ticks me off" The pain in his chest has worsened, as if feeling like your crying. He swore he heard a sound, but doesn't know where it came from. But as soon as he opened his eyes back up, he stood frozen.
You were crying, hot tears started falling down your cheeks, your lips quivering, your very own hands started trembling. But you slowly put up a smile- a crooked one at best. You tried to smile even wider, but all does that do for you is more tears coming out. "I-I... I'm sorry. For how I'm acting, how selfish I was, how much pain you've felt because of my own emotions... I'm so sorry Septem... I'm trying my best to reach your expectations. I didn't mean to break down in front of you.." You got down to your knees, and rested your forehead on the ground. Showing your deepest apologies towards him for everything he felt from you, your actions, your behavior... Basically everything.
Septem looked at you. Your shoulders were trembling even more now, your sniffling is echoing through the room, your head is on the ground- not bearing to see the disappointment on his face. But you felt warm hands raising you up and bringing you closer to something. You looked up, to see that Septem- YES. THE SEPTEM, is holding you close to his chest. He doesn't know what he's doing, he doesn't know what drove him to make this decision, but he's already doing it. "Just cry... Just- Just let it all out. I'll listen to you, but I won't promise you that I can't give you the words that you truly need. I didn't experience this situation before, I'm not a professional. But I'm willing to stay by my host's side if they ever need me. I'll lend an ear, I'll pat your back, but anything to not give you such honeyed words"
Septem's breathes in and out, his shoulders are shaking just slightly less then yours. You rest your head on his chest, closing your eyes to listen to the rhythm of his heartbeat. Before Septem speaks out again "I'm sorry that I didn't acknowledge the sorrow that's building up in your chest. I didn't know such... Humans felt this type of way before. And my deepest apologies that I can't say such sweet words to you. Because I can't bear to lie in front of my host whose in deep grief. I can't say that everything will be alright, I can't say that everything is fine-which it really isn't. So rest, rest your mind, body, eyes... And come back to me when you've felt better Y/N"
Septem clasps his hands- and instantly teleported you to the same bright, white bedroom you've been familiar ever since you entered his domain. He pry's your hands off of him, placing them down on the soft mattress. Pushing you down to lay down, so you followed along with wet tears still coming out of your eyes. After Septem tucks you in, he gave you a hesitant head-pat- before slowly stepping away. Before he fully goes away- you tug onto his sleeve, mumbling under your breath "Please... Don't go.. I don't want to be alone right now" wiping the tears from your eyes, but its no use. More keeps coming out.
Septem sighs, before grabbing your hand and bringing you back to bed. "Fine... But you must tell me all of your problems, I can't bear seeing you all sad like this Y/N. It really ticks me off." his words may seem harsh on the surface, but you know that he doesn't mean that. So you rested your head against his chest-yet again, as you start to spill everything out, every detail, smallest things, etc. While Septem wraps you in a comforting and warm embrace, nodding his head and listening to your every single word
I hope you guys like it!!! Sorry if its ooc for Septem-
I just wanted to put my stuffed emotions into smth. So I made this! Just incase if i ever feel sad-
Fun fact!
You, resting your forehead on the ground with your knees is called "Dogeza" (土下座) in Japanese etiquette, It is to represent extreme regret, a heartfelt plea, or the deepest formal apology reserved for severe offenses
SORRY IF THERES ANY MISTAKES!!! I WAS MAKING THIS AT 3:50 O'CLOCK-