#tdcdania

I have a little surprise for you!

Syrena laid in bed, in the pitch black. Everything was silent, except every once in awhile when she would hear Captain Knots paws tap against the hardwood floor. She didn't know how long she had been laying there in silence, surely a few hours. Syrena looked over at the sleeping body besides her, breathing in and out softly. He was so peaceful when he slept his body all tangled between the sheets...she wondered if she should wake him up and tell him...that she remembered everyone. No, let him be Si...Looking back on all the memories here, him and Dania were the only good ones here. But every time she would make a move she would hurt somebody else, and she wondered if it was even worth it anymore. All she had left was Ronno and dania and honestly...they would do so much better without her..

So without a sound Syrena got up from the bed as quietly as she could and began to pack her things in a small duffle bag. When she was finished she found a piece of paper and a pen.

"Dear Ronno,

I know you're wondering where i am right now, and obviously i am gone..but i'm not going to tell you where i'm going...i remember everything. Do you honestly think you could live a happy life with me? I destroy everything i touch, and no matter what i always mess it up again. I love you Ro, please do not misunderstand you're perfect in every way...but i do not deserve you. I can't say goodbye in person or i would go back on my decision but i need to leave, it would be best for both of us, i promise. I want to thank you for loving me, and having hope in me more than most people do. No matter what my heart will always belong to you, maybe our paths will cross again someday but right now, i need to be free and alone. Please understand....i'm so sorry...Tell Dania i'm sorry too, and that i wish i could've been the best friend she deserved..Don't let me stop you from living, keep living. If anything, please keep that promise, keep living Ro.

P.S: Try to remember the good memories, okay? I love you..

-Syrena"

With that Syrena took in a deep breath and set the note gently on the pillow besides his head. She looked down onto his sleeping body and she kissed his lips softly for the very last time, before sneaking out of the apartment and walking down the streets. It was so weird walking out of the circus gates but uplifting at the same time....she was free. Syrena smiled slightly at the thought and headed to the airport. She was going back home to Thailand, only to find out her sister would be joining her too, otherwise she wouldn't be able to do it alone. She met with her twin at the terminals handing the air hostess their ticket and walking hand in hand until they were seated on the plane. Syrena let out a small sigh and looked over at her sister with a sad smile. "It's okay Si, everything is okay now." Amelia reassured her with the squeeze of her hand. Syrena only nodded a bit as a few tears slid from her eyes. "I know Am. I know."

It was shortly after christmas that Syrena had regain all her memories of Henry, and even the lost memories of her past causing her to become emotionally unstable again. All the emotions filled her whole body at once and she couldn't take it making her leave for awhile without telling a single soul. Syrena didn't know where she was going, but anywhere but the circus was fine with her. It was selfish of her to leave all her friends, family there, especially Ronno. But it was too much for her and she didn't know what else to do.

Syrena was so happy that Dania agreed to go on vacation with her, they both in all honesty need time away from this crazy ass place. Plus it would be even better because they could spend all week together without work or anything to hold them back. No circus, not boys, no bad feelings, just good vibes. She was also excited to visit her old home, it had been such a long time, and she hoped it was just as beautiful as she left it all those years ago. Maybe that would even find her sister there, who knows the possibilities were endless. When Dania got all her things packed, Si took their bags to the car and threw it in the trunk buckling into the drivers seat as they made their way to the airport.

As the waited in the terminal Syrena counted down the minute even the seconds, taking silly pictures with Dania and laughing and smiling with her. It felt like old times, and she couldn't help to be thankful for having Dania in her life. After a while of eating a few snacks and almost falling asleep in the chairs on a couple occasions their plane was finally boarding passengers. She smiled standing up, helping Dania up along with her, throwing their bags on the rotational current as she handed their tickets to the air hostess. Syrena couldn't help the nervous jumping feeling she felt inside of her stomach, as they made there way through the small tunnel boarding the plane, soon they found their seats and situated their bags above them. She let Dania have the window seat since she'd never seen the lights of Thailand before, though the time they would arrive would probably be at night and they both would be tired as hell by then, but it still mattered to Syrena to let her have the seat. Syrena leaned back in her seat with a content sigh as she felt the plane finally shifted moving slowly as they were beginning to take off. Once they were in the air it felt like a weight lifted of the girl's shoulder, as feeling if things were already starting to fall in place. Even if this escape was only for a week, it still felt wonderful. She looked over at Dania with a soft smile, taking her hand in hers and squeezing it softly as they were finally floating through the clouds.