tchtchtchtchtch replied to your post āRANT:Ā my car is broken (engine - oil pressure ran down to 0 enough to...ā
I understand you may have high standards for yourself but just to make sure you're decently calibrated, it is extremely normal to get stressed and feel shitty and not perform ideally when this many things are going wrong
yes but I am getting *so much better* at realizing I Donāt Have ToĀ
and itās sad to realize the wall still exists just a little further outĀ
1. the wifi hotspots are down and I know the thing that caused this but I donāt know why it caused this or have any idea how it happened or how to fix it and various stress related to this (I need to remember that it doesnāt matter. Ā it really doesnāt matter what anyone thinks of my work. Ā I am doing a better job than anyone they will get at what they are paying me.) Ā even if this could actually end badly, being upset or worried or frantic would not help
(but the social effect of feeling negative pressure from someone I canāt fix is really awful)
2. being tired and generally overwhelmed (i neglected food this morning and that hurt) and not having time to stop and reprocess esp when lunches and after work get eaten by stress