#tce general

Proper heat rears its head during mid to late transformation stages, being more solidified in the late stages. While at this stage you're not as destructive as a fully transformed Queen, you're twice as chaotic, being a fully grown adult experiencing a heat for the first time ever. You'll be restless and inconsolable regardless of transformation-type*, and though you won't know what's off first, when thoughts of your respective Icon start showing up, they just won't go away. The imps will have a hard time managing you, because at this point, you already have a decent amount of power and magic in your system, something they can't fight against without possibly dying in the process. They try to trap you into staying within a certain range.

Naturally, you will spend the whole day trying to reach your Icon, and will smell them the moment they are near. Bigger and larger, the impact of your form against theirs might send them tumbling down, and as you finally gain access to their warmth, skin, lips, voice- You'll be able to minimally calm down. Before the rampant arousal begins, and they either immediately cater to it, or get dragged into sex by you.

It is important -Well, advised- To be careful with any developing limbs during this stage. Excessive careless sexual activity might bend a developing tail wrong or chip a still fragile horn. The medical team summoned for this will tell you that ejaculating on the face should be avoided, since your new eyes are still somewhat sensitive and any miscalculation will hurt them.

Due to your organism's accelerated and overheated state, you can't get pregnant from this heat.

All the Icons will generally take it easier on you during this first heat. It's important to them that you come out of it relatively unscathed and not mentally negatively affected.

Nuckelavee subtypes - A form of autonomous cavalry, though when retired, make for powerful horses and great security animals. They look skinless and sport a humanoid upper body that is not, in fact, a different entity but rather just an extension of the animal itself. They're hard to manage and imposing, but beloved by the denizens of the Ring as symbols of unwavering force. Quite intelligent. Kalymir has many of these, and as per usual, he requests breeders to make them as large as possible;

Wrath hounds - Not to be confused with cerberus types, those are ambiguous and often monsters born of specific pairings. Muscled and rather unfriendly looking canines. While it looks as if their sockets are vacant, they're not. Bone growths are common, bifurcated heads are not uncommon, but neither is polycephaly. Lighter tones are not common in these dogs, sizes differ greatly. Kalymir has had plenty in his life's trajectory;

Abyssal bats. Truly oversized bats with a dark coloration, fuzzy collars and several eyes. They're viciously nurturing and good for keeping watch of overactive children. Their sensitive hearing and vibration awareness makes them incredible home safety animals, but that's about it, they don't like leaving the home too much. Kalymir has none.

Using his own animals against him is something that will earn you genuine vitriol from Kalymir, but it will also eventually fester into begrudging admiration. No one does that. No one can do that.

And to think you have twice the balls Roch does, in spite of looking about as boneless as him...

Physically, Admin as her own character looks like this. Though I don't necessarily mind if people want to put slightly different spins on her. She has the height of your average woman, appears to be somewhere in her 20s-early 30s, and is described as "doll-like" at times.

In self-insert!Admin asks, personality will vary according to the energy being used by the asker, thus creating the diversity you mention.

Psychologically, a lot of her attributes as an individual are overshadowed by her crazed, cultish devotion to Krulu. She lives and breathes for this siadar, and it's the most prominent aspect of her entire being. Who she was before is irrelevant. She comes off as secretive when, in reality, there's very little to hide from her part.

Admin is a composed, calculating and oftentimes cold person, who precedes most of her actions throughout her day by asking herself "Will my Lord approve of this?"/"Is this what my Lord asked of me?"/"Am I being productive to The Clergy's Eye?". Her morals, sense of empathy/sympathy and habits are entirely conditioned by the will of another being who she is unconditionally dependent on. Even her posture can vary wildly depending on what she's been ordered to do.

It's worth noting that, although coming off as apathetic and detached frequently, she's not incapable of friendliness or genuine affection, seen in the way she acts towards staff. In her mind's eye, anyone who devotes themself to Krulu is worth much more than the average Joe, and is deserving of care from her part. She considers the staff her closest allies and friends, seeking to reward them for their continued service. However, any tenderness she shows to staff is accompanied by ruthless punishment when considered just or ordered upon her. Admin views punishment as a positive element of her dynamic with the staff, believing it strengthens their bond to her and Krulu.

All relationships she has are marked by some kind of power imbalance, to the point where she might not tolerate being on the same level as someone else. It disorients her.

Some people have asked if Admin is in a romantic relationship with all the staff, and while I enjoy writing that sometimes, it's more probable that Admin doesn't consider any staff member her lover, but that she will use sex and romantic gestures as tools to further secure them in their vows of subservience to her Lord. This isn't to say that it's a chore for her, Admin is a monsterfucker and derives enjoyment from these encounters, which is separate from the euphoria of serving Krulu's will.

In the future, Admin, Belo and Krulu will form the closest thing to a couple in this dynamic. Though Belo will always view himself as inferior to both Krulu and his Lady.

Admin is considered creepy by more than a few people. This comes not from an appearance standpoint, but rather the way she tends to "space out" blankly from time to time. She's not truly distracted, more than likely having a conversation with Krulu. Other factors that contribute to her creepiness but aren't exclusive to her are the way she keeps her calm in the most chaotic of situations, the occasional manic breaking of her cool when she's brought to hysteric states (more often than not due to perceived rejections from Krulu or someone prompting her to lovingly rant about him), and the total indifference to how Krulu may choose to alter her current shape to his liking.

Her indifference towards what happens to other humans inside TCE is almost self-explanatory given her earlier description, though it's worth stressing again that she mirrors what Krulu thinks here too.

You don't feel bad about what happens to those of your kin when they're brought inside The Clergy because Krulu has helped you see the bigger picture. Because you're mentally distant enough to not even think of yourself as human anymore. Krulu certainly likes to exalt your nature as the only good lesser out there, the best of them all- [...]

Being that Admin has no true sense of identity which is separate from Krulu, rejection or outright being discarded by him wouldn't just drive her immediately insane, it would cause her to give up on life. Her purpose is to be his, and if Krulu sees no more use in her, then Admin failed, and her life is pointless.