#tbreak

1) trying to drink more in an effort to enjoy a substance alongside folks smoking pot sounded nice but it’s given me nightmares each night since I’ve started the break.

2) I’ve come to terms with the fact I most certainly have a dependence with weed - but haven’t decided if I feel that’s a bad thing.

3) over eating is not a thing when I’m sober, like the self discipline is FULLY in tact.

4) My confusion tied to what my personality is in its bare bones almost seems✨Existential Crisis-y✨ because I really don’t know this marijuana free bitch. I’VE SMOKED DAILY SINCE AUGUST 2014!

I had to spend today COMPLETELY sober so I can see if I have nightmares tonight- if I do I’m going back to smoking tomorrow.

They say that it takes one month for THC to fully leave your body. Since August 2018, I have not gone more than one month without the intake of THC; if I’m being completely honest, I don’t think I’ve gone more than two weeks. Since February 2020, I’ve gotten really fed up with my outstanding tolerance for the drug. I’ve had tolerance problems for a while now, but continue to have no success in the many tolerance breaks that I’ve tried to commit myself to. I must admit that I don’t take them very seriously to begin with. I tend to get bored easily, and being in quarantine has only made the temptation so much harder. Since February, the longest that I’ve gone has been no more than a day. But like I said, I am very much a person of immediate reward rather than choosing to benefit in the long run. But today I have had it. I am so tired of wasting money on not getting high when I could be saving money and have the same result. I’ve chosen to go cold turkey for one month because that’s how long it will take for my body to fully rid itself of the chemical compound. Hopefully, its effects will be restored back to maximum impact and I will have more powerful highs. Eek! I’m so excited if this is going to work!!! I’m writing this as the first entry to my blog as a way to stay motivated an accountable to one of the many verbal promises that I make for myself. I hope that writing this virtual declaration and commitment to the break I will actually hold enough discipline within myself to stay sober for the whole break. As a way to fully commit, I am going to write one entry each day just to keep track of my progress because there’s nothing better to do for a pothead stuck at home taking a month-long tolerance break. 

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