#tatgilb

I hope to god that you never find this, but I’m actually debating for the first time wether i should tell you how i feel, because i know you might be moving to Queensland. It’s funny because i told myself multiple times before that i would never fall for you. Because you were ‘too angry’, ‘didn’t tell people how you felt’ or ‘you refused to be alone at any time’, but i guess when you fall for someone their flaws suddenly become attractive? or you at least understand their reasoning. I saw the reasons behind your anger and secrets, suddenly it became cute how you never wanted to be left alone. I hate how you don’t think you’re pretty or smart, you remind me of lauren jauregui who happens to be one of my favourite celebrities. You’re eyes are like a tropical ocean of blues and greens, one of you’re eyes even has more hazel in it which in my opinion is so cool. I don’t understand why you dislike your curly hair, i think it’s cute. I couldn’t stop staring at you when you cut your hair, it looks amazing on you. I regret not taking my chance when you said you slightly liked me, i hope one day your feelings resurface for me.

If you really want to know the truth, because I know I do. I’ve liked you for almost two years? I remember seeing you for the first time on the bus and falling in love thinking you were beautiful and to my suprise you were one of my cousins close friends, but that also made you two years older. You said things that confused me, I could never tell if you were flirting or just being funny. Maybe you were flirting but I never thought I ever had a chance. I had always thought my eyes were boring being the incredibly dark brown they were, but liking you made me appreciate brown eyes so much more, I remember your smile when you waved at me in the library, I don’t think I’ve ever blushed that hard. I regret that you had to find out from someone else and not from me, although I probably never would have told you because I’m too scared of getting hurt. But I hope one day you’ll realise that you were what i consider my first actual crush and you weren’t some short term crush.