#tambok

I’m really sick of all these “Shit! Dakua na man ka!”, “Oh my gosh! Tambuka man ka!”, “Ghad bes! Ang taba mo na!”, “Wala kay plano magdiet??”, “Naunsa na man ka uy! Buntis ka or tambok lang gyd ka?”, “Your legs are so big they could pass as a crispy pata!”, “Do you know that you’re too fat already?”.

What the fuck?! Seriously?? I’m so sick of all this criticism!

I don’t really get why you’re so bothered with how much fat I’ve gained already. Inaano kayo ng fats ko? Tangina nyo po!

I am well aware of how fat I am and how huge I have become. I am aware of that. I see that every time I face my mirror. And yes, I, myself, am bothered of that. I’m not blind or stupid or naive or insensitive or whatever you may call it. I KNOW I’M FAT! You don’t have to tell me over and over and over again.

You don’t know how wounded I am already every time I face the mirror. You don’t know how much I try to fake my confidence, and how much I’m trying to build it up for myself because I know that nobody else will do it for me.

And now, you’ll tell me, “Wa ka naluoys imong kaugalingon? Wa ka naluoys imong sanina?” Well I say, FUCK YOU IKALIMA! Of course, I pity myself! I’m almost drowning for self pity but instead of comforting me what did you do? You just added salt into my wounds!

And do you know what’s even worse? You keep on repeating it over and over and over again. Why? Because you think it’d help me? No! You’re wrong! Do you even know that a lot of those so called fat people had suicidal thoughts? And guess what? You contributed on a lot of those thoughts! Do you also know that a lot of people have been having eating disorders because of all your bullshit? Well, now you know.

So where do you think is the so-called “help” in what you’re doing?? NONE! Now go, get a life! Stop creating standard body images. Stop trying to tell people what they should and what they shouldn’t look like!

Kung hindi naman kayo dinadaganan ng fats ko, wag kayong magreklamo! Hindi naman ako nagpapakarga sa inyo! Ako naman ang nagdadala ng katawan ko! Tangina nyo ulit!