#talkposting

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I've only known him in Strive, so I didn't know this before, but Faust used to be different--I mean REALLY different (*cough* dr. Baldhead! *cough*)--than how he is now.

Apparently, up until Strive, he used to be wacky-offbeat-funny character on the roster, and I keep reading things like "he seems so sad now--I want my goofy doctor back" "I miss silly Faust!" "I want him to be happy again!" and after watching his part in "Another Story" and learning just how vastly different our resident wandering doctor's natural state is to his current one, I certainly understand the sentiment of people wanting him to become healthy again...

...but knowing his past, along with his usual jovial demeanor, I can't help but wonder if the reason he always acted that way was not for himself but for us.

Maybe he tries to make other people happy because that's the only way he can be happy himself? (dammit…I'm guilty of this myself…) I can't say for sure, but it always seems to be the people who make us laugh the most who have the strongest inner demons...

Considering everything he's been through, I think, in a way, we may be experiencing the real "Faust" for the very first time. It feels both insensitive and strange to say this when you can see just how much he's suffering, but I think I'd rather have a Faust who is no longer pretending to be happy, even if it IS for the sake of bringing us joy, if we can know how he's really feeling...Maybe now, he'll be able get help from others, too.

get well soon, Doctor... ♡

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Thank you so much! You reminded me about the fact that @forlornmutt got me a Recoil CD, hehe :3 I will also be listening to Want 💖💖💖