#tal asks

aw hehe thanks <3 u are pink as well !!

Asks like this make me less afraid. I may not have known what I wanted out of making that quiz, but I do know I want this feeling for you. I know that you deserve to feel like yourself and I am so so so glad that even for a moment I could help you feel connected back to that. I hope you know, you’re always yourself. You’ve been yourself, this whole time, even if you didn’t feel it. You don’t get lost or separated, it’s just sometimes the world makes it so that it’s safer to hide parts of you away. So it only makes sense that you can’t always see the full picture of yourself clearly, have that sense of completeness and presence. I hope that you get more and more days where you get to see yourself, know you’re there, know you’ve always been there. Be gentle with yourself when you can friend. I don’t know you, but I trust you with that. Take care of you for me, alright? It’ll be easier in time, to take care of you for you.

Hello friend! I hope you’re doing well and that you’ve found some quizzes you enjoy more than mine since asking this. I know the HP quiz is not for everyone, honestly I made it two years ago at this point and I don’t know if I would say it’s as ‘for me’ as it once was. I think it’s pretty ironic that my house quiz is what brought so many people to my blog, because the reason I made it in the first place is because I kind of hate house quizzes, I don’t think I’ve ever taken one that hasn’t gotten me wrong! A random quiz some stranger on the internet made is never going to know you better than you do, so if you think you’re a Slytherin, then you are! It’s as simple as that. Hehe I also agree with the fact I put too many sleeping at last lyrics in it, I think at the time I just thought they were an easy way to get really specific lyrics that represent a way of thinking, since the songs I pulled them for were about personality types anyways. As for Taylor Swift, absolutely no hate, the comment in the description of the quiz is a joke directed toward my roommate (back when I was pretty sure only my groupchat was going to take the quiz). She sends a lot of uquizes that include questions like “Pick a song off of Red or Evermore that Represents You” or a similar type of question with artists like Lorde or Florence and the Machine. I’m definitely a fan of all those artists at this point, or at least many specific songs, but I’m not an album person and I used to complain to her All the Time that since I didn’t know every song off the album I either had to Google every songs individual lyrics or just go off of title alone and possibly get a less accurate answer. At this point in our friendship though I’m pretty sure I could do it at least with Folklore and probably Red hehe. But I wanted to set up my song based questions so you never needed any prior knowledge going into the quiz, hence the insane amount of stupidly long lyric questions hehe. None of this is said to get you to like my quiz, the internet is a big place, if you don’t like my quiz that’s cool, there’s like a million others you can enjoy. It’s mostly just that I’ve had a few asks that touch on all these subjects so I figured I could give a little explanation. Mostly, you’re right, I’m more than a bit pretentious and it gets pretty exaggerated in the quiz just because of the format and general lack of context. Hehe I haven’t been called a hipster in a while but I do look like a guy who’d be into like. Pour over coffee. And that’s not everyone’s thing! But you know, unfortunately it’s my thing, and whatever your thing is, I hope you find a lot of uquizes and blogs that suit it better. Im sure there’s a ton of them out there.

Hehehe okay one, yes I absolutely am I loved that podcast I thought it was so well done and like a fucking masterclass on interwoven storytelling. Two, funnily enough (and I’m literally sorry because this is going to be long I’m just incapable of keeping my answers concise) both of those questions are based after two completely different things that are important to me. The circus question is based on an essay I wrote a few years ago on performance as an inherently queer construct (and a life long obsession with circuses), and the “I See You,” was based on a conversation about trying to exist in the world and what matters to me in a relationship as a person with ASPD. I think the magnus archives is partially so appealing due to the fact that so much of its stylistic, narrative, it’s fucking thematic choices are all inherently queer or speak to the queer experience. It makes it easy as a writer to make something based on my life and then just by reading it you know I’d like TMA. It’s part of why listening to it feels so good to me. I mean, horror as a concept is queer but the magnus archives goes such the extra mile hehe. But yes you definitely caught me, I’m a hunt kinnie and my most recent cosplay was Agnes Montague

I have a hard time explaining this blog to people in my life. It’s not that I’m being dishonest or portraying a fictional version of myself by any means, it’s more that I find myself curating this blog to be as close to that place of wild strawberries as I can. I just think you and I both deserve a little place on the internet where we can just breathe you know? I mean I’ve got agoraphobia for gods sake, I’m not touching grass a whole lot, so if I’m gonna be online I want to make sure there’s an anchor of a space I can go back to that’s just. Certain. Soft. Kind. Or at least as close to that as I can make it, just being some guy. I know it’s not that deep, but sometimes it is, and it is for me a lot of the time. This blog is like this for completely selfish reasons I’m not going to lie, like this is just how I want and need my blog to be you know? But I’m glad that even if I made this for myself, it can still be good for other people, and how you interact with it can make it something individual and meaningful to you if you want that too. Hope you are doing well. Thank you for the ask, it helped me articulate something I’ve been struggling to and it meant a lot. The song Black Bear by Black Bear reminds me of this. Stay safe, and be gentle with yourself, when you can.

Missed you guys too c: I honestly kinda didn’t know what to do with this blog for a while. I really wasn’t expecting to get as much traction as I did from that quiz and I kind of got a little intimidated by my ask box and psyched myself out about what this blog should look like and how I was pretty sure that the people who followed me for that uquiz was would probably not be interested in anything else I put out. But I mean, at the end of the day tumblr is just like a way to post shit you enjoy and talk to your friends. I really like the space I’d cultivated for people on this blog, and I know I’ll like it even more if I feel like I can joke around and be stupid and not always worry about creating a flawless experience for people. Hehe I know that this is a lot and not necessarily anything you asked about, but I’m pretty sure you’ve popped in my ask box a few times anon c: I hope you’re doing well. Todays a pretty good day for me. I hope it can be for you too.

I am disabled professionally 🥰 hehe since my condition is theoretically one I will eventually no longer have symptoms of, I will probably one day return to the “original” plan and finish getting my degree in English and Secondary Education. Who’s to fucking say though, it’s not gonna be in the cards for a long while and at this point I’m looking at the time I spent working on a farm with ill intent. Right now though my career is sleeping, being paralyzed, playing Dnd, writing shitty songs and animal crossing. And lots of therapy lol. Thank you for asking though it’s really sweet of you to be curious and I hope you have such a good day, and if not a better tomorrow c: