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Yellow: 7 facts about my childhood

1. I was very tanned as a child. Can you believe it? I was super tanned. Seriously.

2. I spent a lot of my time at my grandmother’s place with my cousin and best friend who is absolutely fabulous and I know she is reading this right now so shoutout to the best cousin in the world. Also Jako is cool too but he’ll never know.

3. I had a cat for most of my childhood, a Siamese called Viki. He was great.

4. I loved playing outside with my friends, my best friend back then was a neighbour girl. I just see her Facebook posts sometimes nowadays, but mostly don’t know anything about her.

5. I did very well at school. I didn’t study but still had good grades.

6. I started singing at a very early age, playing the piano followed shortly after.

CARNATION:If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer? - Mmm.. mm m . .. Hurts? Just because I am loyal to them. :D Even though I'm quite flexible and will accept any concert ticket.

FOXGLOVE:Name three facts about your family? - I'm an only child, my parents are still married, I have a lot of cousins. :D

POINSETTIA:Favorite holiday dish? - Pork and sauerkraut, I think. :D 

OXLIP:Would you ever get into a long distance relationship? - Been there, done that. If I had to, I would. 

PRIMROSE:Favorite kind of soup? - Rassolnik :D

ROSE:Are you currently in love with someone? - *shines nails and pretends the question doesn't exist*

PEONY:What's your favorite hot beverage? - Mmm..  chai latte because I moved to Norway and got converted. :D Also hot chocolates, of course.

HIBISCUS:Did you ever play an instrument? If so what? - When I was like 6 I was a pro at accordion. I also home-learned a flute and I actually went to music school and played the piano.

POPPY:What color was your childhood home? - Orange and white

RHODODENDRON:What's the scariest dream you've ever had?- When my grand-grandmother had just died, I dreamt I was alone outside our house in the dark and everything was quiet and my parents' car was gone and my dog was nowhere and then I looked up through my window and saw my grand-grandmother sitting on my bed in a ghostly halo. God damn I still get creeped out by it..

ASTER:Would you rather be cold or hot? - Mmm.. depends. I'd rather be neither :D If I was too hot though, I'd take a cold shower and probably have an icecream cocktail. Besides, who wouldn't want to be 'hot' ? :D So yeah. Hot. Being cold only rocks when you finally get home and snuggle up in bed. Or when someone cuddles you. :D

LADY GREY: favourite outfit: probably my red dress and the black jacket and those new warm leggings. :D

HONEY: type out the last text you sent: "Varsti jälle ;)"

CHAI: what do you order at Starbucks: strawberry frappuccino. :D

HERBAL: post a selfie: done already. :D

COFFEE: how do you take your coffee? - i don't. but i do when i'm at home and can use the coffee machine. then i just go for a macchiato. :D

freddy kreuger: what is one of your worst nightmares? - mmm... probably ending up as the last human on Earth. also, seeing my family murdered. frankenstein’s monster: when you fall apart, what pulls you back together? - I do. :) I spend time with my friends drinking, forgetting, desperately trying to move on, I tell them things and they support me. My mum is an amazing listener and gives the best advice.. but at the end of the day, I have to decide to want to feel better. Then I do.mothra: what is something dangerous that attracts or fascinates you? - Vampires? :Dcthulhu: do you like the ocean? why or why not? - I do.. Well, first of all I grew up on an island so I was surrounded by water. It calms me and makes me feel free. :)werewolf: if you could change into any nonhuman animal and back at will, what animal would you change into and why? - an eagle. They don't have to be afraid of being hunted by other birds and they are strong and majestic. :D I would just fly to each of my destinations.dracula: are you afraid of aging? or death? - I am, actually. Both. Aging a bit less, but death for some reason really scares me. But I'm working on that.witch: if you could magically change anything about yourself right now, what would it be and why? - I'd kill some feelings, or make myself forget. :D That's about it I guess.

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1.  Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette - Not a problem at all.

2. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? - I’m single, taken, heartbroken and confused. :D

4. Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me” ? - Yep. Twice.

5. Are you interested in anyone right now? -  You could say that.

8. Did you go out or stay in last night? - Last night I was curing the aftermath of the night before that. :D

10. Can you recall the last time you realised you liked someone a lot? - Yes. It was terrifying.

11. Last three drinks you had to drink? - water, milk and vodka. :D

13. Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? - No.

16. Think back 5 months ago, were you single? - No.

17. What were you doing 12:30 this afternoon? - Tumblring, high five, Taavi :D

20. What would you name your future daughter? - I have fallen in love with the name Elendor now. It’s different, but it sounds beautiful. I know noone with the name. And it holds a special meaning.

26. Who did you last see in person? - Kaili, if you mean closer communication. If not, then some random person down at the mailboxes.

34. Will you talk to the person you like tonight? -  Probably

40. Will you sing today? - I am, as a matter of fact, singing right now. SAIL!

52. Do you miss the way things were 6 months ago? - I do sometimes, but not enough to want to turn time back. :) Maybe if we talk years-wise…

Dear future me,

I am already proud of who you’re going to be. The steps I’m taking and the decisions I’m making are beautiful and make me stand stronger than ever. :) Also, don’t forget what got you here and be thankful for every experience because all of that, good or bad, shaped you into who you are now. And that person is more confident and braver than ever. Also, good luck with all that job searching, you little shit. I love you!

Love,