It's been in my head for a bit... So I'm putting it down. Just like on Kath's blog, since it is along the lines of a vent post even with it being introspection, it's going under a read-more.
We've always been averse to anger, hatred, and similar reactions... Especially if we're on the receiving end. But I can't help but wonder...
...If part of that is because of me.
We got into my source (BIT.TRIP) back in 2013. We were still very, very young and developing. And if we've had the seeds of plurality growing at the time, it is very likely that I *formed* back then. I am a Longtimer; I've hung around in an abstract way before syscovery properly gave me shape. But with how long ago our entry into my source was... That frame of time would allow for more of any effect on how our brain works...
If you know my story, then you know what happens to me in FATE. After being bombarded again and again by negativity and hatred despite wanting to combat it with positivity, it drove me to a breaking point. I succumbed to my own to the point where I was blinded and tunnelvisioned by it. Because of how blinded by my own rage I was, I couldn't focus on anything else other than getting rid of my adversary... No matter what it took.
And that resulted in my DEATH.
That's why I can't help but wonder... On top of what we need to help our brain overcome... If every time we face such intensity no matter if it is directed to us or to others, we're reminded of me. Of what I've faced. Of what became of me.
And as a result of that... We fear ourselves (and others) falling to the same FATE...
