#syscourse meta

I have found a group of people I really love interacting with. This list includes but is not limited to @okiimii, @ecos-syscourse, @artisticdysfunction, @thecircularsystem and @cambriancrew!! These people post a variety of things that range from making me cackle at my screen, ponder my own existence, rethink my internal biases and fall more in love with myself and my system.

I find syscourse fun. Genuinely fun. I like reading people's opinions, I like seeing the memes. I enjoy writing my own longer form opinions.

TW: self harm, skip if needed. I have and continue to use syscourse as a form of digital self harm. I do this with many websites and tags on tumblr, as a way to make myself feel bad and guilty about my existence. It has replaced other forms of self harm and so it is both a positive and negative thing. I am working on it.

TW over I participate in syscourse as a way to contextualise and cement my opinions in different topics. I tend to avoid the emotionally fuelled arguments and the bait blogs because they aren't helpful or fun to me. I write my essays and I read lots, especially as my reading ability fluctuates and I'm working myself back up to being able to read medical papers for fun.

I find syscourse a better community than pro endo or anti endo tags. Both those spaces make me feel uncomfortable as a mixed origins DID system with spiritual origins and created headmates. I feel like I'm not a system the "correct" way in either space and I do not enjoy my time there. So I stay in syscourse.