#sysbfk

He hasn't known you for a long time. You've been missing for what feels like an eternity. Days blotch and blur into the hazy misty smoke exhaled out your bedroom window. The smoke carries the memories and feelings of the weeks before, their burden too heavy to shoulder anymore. One night the boy in your bed, your very best friend, awakes with a fervent taste for the smoke, a desire you cannot quite place but you are not one for questions so you relent. And when the desire is evoked within him and he demands the smoke again and again, you do as you are asked to and you don't as questions. Until you do. A chemical happiness wishes and washes in your bones, turning your mind inert and slow, when you lay your head on his chest to hear the steady rhythm of his breathing. A chemical happiness wishes and washes in your bones, turning your mind inert and slow, when the burning question leaves your mind out the mouth. The desire buried deep, a small seed in dirt starts to grow and seep out into the air taking a peak out of its hiding, and starts it's unraveled revealing. Soon, it is lips against lips, body against body, desire and pleasure, matter over mind. Realization hits, the puzzle pieces click, time starts to tick, and the domino has fallen.

i’m rereading sysbfk and UGH. eric knew EXACTLY what he was doing here. i’m actually shaking and sobbing uncontrollably.