#swootery

I am not going to make this long but today was terrible. I haven't felt this disappointed in myself in a long time, I feel so useless and stupid. I have been going through a lot of stress lately with big life changes, school work, and portfolio. I also think I have finally overworked myself to the point of exhaustion due to me trying to balance school and portfolio. And when I do get into slumps it seems harder and harder to take myself out of them. I knew February would be difficult but I never expected this. And yes I have been going through what some would call depression but I don't want to go into it and start an even bigger pity party for myself since I don't deserve anyone's empathy or sympathy for this. I got myself into this, I am alone in this and I will deal with it myself as best as I can. I am my own problem.

So I am sorry if I disappear off Tumblr for a while. I know a lot of people love and support me but I honestly can't even love myself right now. I am killing myself with overworking myself mentally and physically.