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TAGGED BY : @unlegacied FIRST RULE :  tag nine muses you would like to know better ! SECOND RULE : bold the statements that are true for your muse (italics for situational; bold italics for emphasis !

APPEARANCE.

I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY.

I love meeting new people. People tell me that I’m funny. Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me. I enjoy physical challenges. I enjoy mental challenges. I’m playfully rude with people I know well. I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it. There is something I would change about my personality.

ABILITY.

I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do over 30 push-ups without stopping I’m a fast runner. I can draw well. I have a good memory. I’m good at doing math in my head. I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute. I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling. I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch. I know how to throw a proper punch.

HOBBIES.

I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES.

I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS.

I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE.

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share(d) my room with someone

RANDOM.

I have break-danced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languages

I love both of them b ut my heart is for Ben Solo.

The second in command of the Knights of Ren sat beside her wounded superior, pulling off the helmet she had been wearing since they began. Her thick curls fell over her dark garb, sea coloured hues staring down to the floor before turning to see the bloody gash along the side of his face. Her heart ached to see him in such great pain, even if his glossy onyx gaze was void of any emotion; After all, she knew better.

“… I haven’t seen you this destroyed since the day we…”

Her gloved digits stroked the jagged metal of her headgear, deciding maybe it wasn’t a good idea to bring up that sort of trauma. Flashes of fire and the death of her friends and classmates burned into her memory for a moment before she pushed them far down into the recesses of her mind. She had to… Her force sensitivity was tied to her emotions and if she let them run wild again—

The smoke had cleared on the lush, vibrant planet, and the First Order had taken to retreat, the rebels were left to pick up the pieces of their base now left in shambles and smoldering flames. The few pilots left exited their warships, exhausted and emotionally depleted and among them all was their Commander who frantically jumped from his trusted vessel and ran to the BB unit he had left upon the ground. Relieved to see the droid beep and speak binary language with ease to him, his attention scattered to the scene. Finn and Rose rushed to his side but before they could even begin to talk, Poe was on his feet.

“… Where’s Lauren?”

Words were abrupt and short and when Finn and Rose exchanged unsure glances, panic set in to the pilot’s heart. He ran as fast as his legs could carry him with the droid at his heels, grunting as the heavy equipment of his suit slowed him; the man violently shredding it from his body and abandoning it on the ground. He asked around to all of the rebels that were dressing their wounds or tending to the deceased or broken parts of their resistance; many shaking their heads or answering the exact same way. They haven’t seen her.

“The General wandered somewhere into the jungle. Said that someone needed her. I don’t know if that means anything…”

A twist of anxiety grabbed hold of his insides when the fighter told him that the General herself went off. They pointed him in the direction and he took flight on his heels again; following the foot prints in the moist soil, noticing some of the greenery painted with splotches of crimson. The deeper in, the more red the leaves became, puddles now appearing on the earth at his feet until finally he was lead to the clearing. Storm troopers lay fallen all around, and as he stepped over their silent forms and into the very heart of it all, he could feel his anxiety mounting. A lump in his throat refused to go down with each swallow–

“… Poe…”

Leia was kneeling, a position no General or Princess should ever take, her back to his gaze. A feeling of dread washed over him as she turned her chocolate hues to him from over her shoulder, which were swollen and red with unshed tears. He stepped closer, her words continuing to break with each motion forward he took.

“… I didn’t want her to be alone… At the end.”

The Commander then saw the woman who laid lifeless in a pool of red, a sudden stab of pain leaving him shaken and breathless, forcing him to his knees. Her once vibrant and bright eyes now cold, glossy, and dull… Gray. The spirals of her curls were painted in the blood they soaked in, holes in clothes and body where the shots were fired from the blasters… And a huge slice across her middle… From a lightsaber. The pilot scooped her up in his arms, his dominate calloused hand reaching for the woman’s chin.

“Hey… Come back safe… And I promise to give you my first kiss.”

“I… I made it back… Y-You owe me… Remember?”

Leia watched as hot tears fell from Poe’s broken eyes. There was nothing she could say to ease the burning in his chest; the pilot leaning forward and letting his lips gently touch her own… Grimacing at how utterly cold she was. It wasn’t supposed to be like this… His forehead pressed against Lauren’s, his body quaking with the quiet sobs that left his gritted teeth.

“… Please… Please come back… I can’t… Lose you too… Pl-Please…”

The only thing he heard in response was the shaking of his own pleading.