#suu lore

sometimes i still think about that girl who was in my class last year and she'd come back from the washroom after hours with fresh cuts and blood all over her arms and somehow no one else really cared?? noticed??

i asked a friend who was in that class if she ever was concerned for her and. apparently i'm either tweaking or i was actually the only person who noticed the blood dripping from her arms and legs?????

i feel really bad whenever i think about her bc a) self harm and b) she came up to me one day and told me i was super cool and she wanted to be my friend but i was kinda going through it and pretty antisocial at the time so i just avoided her (and most other people as well but it included her) i think i only talked to 3 separate people at the time and other than that it was just teachers ans adults actually

i also remember at the beginning (bc she transferred to our school late october ish) she would come to school every other day and towards the end of the school year she hadn't shown up in months so i was concerned something had happened

+ she talked about getting arrested often for stealing and stuff

i also don't think she got to move up to the next year but im not sure but thats off topic

i don't really know i feel bad whenever i think about her but i think about her a lot. it's like one of the people i failed to help ? when i clearly had the chance to? i could have befriended her and at least become a reliable person for her