#sutoraida

you should preen more preening is important for healthy birds

It took Ash a few hours to get back from her impromptu trip through the black decrepit industrial town where they had set up their new oncoming fort. She was still angry though, and frustrated so she didn't bother trying to sleep and she didn't go to Dave's room. Ash went straight back to work, sitting on a rafter in the factory adjacent to the office building. Part of the ceiling was opened to expose wiring as she worked on continuing to set up (what she currently spitefully thought of as) Dave's fortress. Her argument with Dave was the cherry on top of the building resentment she had. Epsilon, Prince, Karkat, Hal, Dirk. She was so angry and could only think about every time she was treated like she was irrational, hysterical, or just straight up incompetent. Hal's barely chained wild dog that needed to be muzzled before she hurt herself or everyone else. Who needed to just Calm Down because she was always over reacting. It probably tied in to why everyone wanted to lock her up, keep her isolated. Never let her be alone because her judgment wasn't trustworthy. Ash had to take a deep breath before she tore apart the wiring in her hands and ruined all of her work. She felt hot all over, luckily her hands were steady and reliable so she could continue the careful work of rewiring. She clipped off her work and hopped off the rafter to the floor, picking up her mobile where it was laying on a defunct machine. She sent Tommy a text and went back to work. Even though he was probably doing his hero thing or was sleeping or zipping around and wouldn't be able to answer for a long time ,just doing that made her feel a little better.

im too gay to live anymore just bury me 

She killed him. She killed her dad- who against all odds has adopted and treated her like his own real daughter, instead of the fucked up needy alien that kept causing messes. Ash killed her dad. He wasn't dead yet but she could feel him rapidly sinking downward as Olivine and Meenah, the other Meenah, rushed away to find a stasis pod to try to save his life. The hallway went quiet except for her heavy breathing. Elsewhere in the building wendigos and humans still roamed, some wendigos were escaping out of the new hole Prince had made and Ash... Ash just sat there crying quietly and shaking a little. She took a few deep gulps and wiped tears and blood off of her face. She managed to summon a mental image of Max and his sneer, imagine what he'd say about her being so pathetic right now, and that at least helped motivate her a little. She remembered what had caused all of this, the monster beneath her feet. Ash was going to destroy it, but not alone. She needed- "Dave!" That galvanized her better than anything. "Dave hold on!" She hissed scrambling to her feet. They had been separated for too long, she needed to find him, Ash needed to help her moirail, and needed to be with him.