#survivorsofsexualassault

I am sincerely sorry this has happened to you, no one deserves this. I don't know 100% how it felt for you or how your experience felt, but I'm also a survivor. Don't let anyone tell you that it was all your fault, don't tell yourself it was all your fault because you definitely didn't cause it. I'm not pitying you and telling you to get over it or telling you you will get over it and forget about it. Though what I am saying is that you're strong. If you feel like you're sinking ask for help. You don't have to go through with it alone. I know it's hard and difficult, but please don't let yourself drowned. Go get the help you need. I am so sorry this has happened to you, I truly am. Though please have the strength to push forward and swim to shore. Though it may take awhile and a lot of strength you can do this."

-- Anonymous

          Thankfully, I received an overwhelming amount of support on my page, Survivors of Sexual Assault, to help me on my journey dealing with Sexual Assault and recovering from alcoholism. However, this past Saturday I received a message from an individual that was very negative. This person was insisting that I made this page and my posts on other social media (Instagram) for attention.

           This person is right; I made this page to get attention. I made this page to raise awareness for sexual assault survivors and to help provide a support system for to the people that deal with these problems and the other issues that occur from sexual abuse.

           My drinking, for example, stemmed from my abuse. I understand that I have hurt many people with my drinking. I have been trying to make amends with these people, but some people I know will need a lot of time to forgive me. My self-loathing from drinking affected the ones around me. I have hurt the people that were close to me that cared about me. I have broken girls’ hearts by cheating on them; I have broken their trust and faith in future men. I have said things that I did not mean. I have selfishly done things to myself that have caused others pain. I hope that these people will never forget, but at least be able to forgive me for my wrong doings.

           I am grateful that this person felt so strongly that they contacted me, because it has given me another chance to turn something negative into something positive. It just goes to show you that even though some people try and pull you back into the mistakes of your past, what they are actually doing is pulling you back to sling shot you forward for a better motivation toward your goal.