#support is key

You know what my wish is?

I wish they had such immense, loud, overwhelming and loving support, that any fears or pain they might have might be replaced with ease and comfort.

That the love from the people would be so huge that fears wouldn't hold any weight compared to how much they are supported.

That they can feel relaxed enough to live their life the way they want to, free from any burdens.

I want their total freedom of being.

And it might sound idealistic.

But I feel the positive and loving voices of the people is the only way it ever will be a possibility for them. I see no other way.

It made me so happy to see so many jikookers and jikook banners in Munich. It makes me so happy every time I read my comment section filled with messages of support towards jikook.

I personally want to support them harder in any way I can. I want them to feel loved, seen and respected. I want them to know there always will be so many people to catch them, to hold them, to love them, however they wanna present themselves and how they wanna live.

This is so so so important to me.

There is an influx of new jikookers nowadays. Our numbers are growing.

I hope all of us can make a difference. And keep supporting and loving them in our own way. LOUD.

That's the only way I see that could ease their minds.

I am so inspired by BNW's drive. My own fire has been growing inside me for a while and I wanna do my best.

Let's all join hands and do our best for jikook.

Please?

Support is essential, we are not meant to live life in a vacuum.  Just like you don't often suffer through a cold without at least some over the counter medication, the same should be true with your physical and mental health, don't suffer alone.  Get the support you need and deserve! -Team SG

so posting latish again, but since i haven't gone to bed I feel it counts. 

Today I ran into a lot of emotions. This morning was fear and shame. Fear over going to school after skipping for a week and shame over what people might say over missing for a week and being behind. Like everyone would now know what a terrible person I was and would hate me. Instead everyone was super nice. I was so freaked out i didn't actually make it to class until after lunch but the teachers just caught me up on what i missed in the morning and my friends asked if I was feeling better, when i told them i hadn't been sick they just asked if I had done anything fun. No judgement and they helped me catch up to. It's super interesting how frequently my feelings about myself have nothing to do with how others see me. 

Then in the afternoon I had a lot of rage building up. Luckily I also had a session with the lovely Oskar. I was super angry when we first started talking but she quickly helped me become aware that it was just covering up my sadness. Sadness over not being able to forgive myself and just treating myself shitty and how everyone in my life does the same thing and thats what we spread around us. just more shame and anger everywhere. So a couple tears were shed. we also noticed how much had changed when Ive been focusing on letting love into my life and using it as my guiding force instead of punishment and fear. Like how i went out this weekend and was people in crowded places and just enjoyed it. which if you know me is pretty amazing. 

so i guess thoughts for the day was just to support myself in the journey. I want to be done and for everything to happen immediately. But this is a process and a journey and i have so many wonderful things to do and learn on this path that I can focus on enjoying instead of trying to skip to the end. Supporting and loving myself everyday is what I need to focus on and everything else will come.