For the years I've wasted so far, and the ones I've yet to start I've began to wonder if all the choices I've made so far have been so smart For the better part of my life I stayed away from the 'dark side' Now that I've affiliated myself with it; it's like the only amusement ride In the beginning I only used to smoke and puff on those foggy jib bowls Now I fill myself over and over with useless holes The only hole that needs "fixing' is the hole in my head If I don't smarten up soon, I will only find myself dead Look at yourself, and look at your life Don't you ever want to be somebody's wife? I know that it's easy to say, but it's not that easy to do I want a fresh start; I want to try something new Doing this shit, it hasn't been something I've advise I know all the decisions that I've made haven't been wise Before I'm lost forever, I need to get out of this life style I didn't realize the truth before, I was in denial The truth is, I'm an addict; and I am co-dependent on the high It's some kind of thing that I never thought I'd try It started as an experiment then turned into a disease Luckily for me I've never gotten any deadly STDs Some of my friends are gone forever; just like that Here one minute then gone; just like a drop of hat I'm scared that might be a possibility for me One bad whack; and its goodbye Bree More and more I question myself on why I'm still here Losing your life is something everyone should fear What would that do to my family; my friends; and my pets It's something that not anyone truly ever forgets Addiction affects everybody, not just the one using Living a clean life; a real life is something not worth losing Before my life is over, young or old; I need to get away I would be lying if I said I'm going to start today Addicts don't become addicted overnight suddenly That's something I learned in recovery Doing dope isn't as fun as I thought it would be I feel like I'm trapped; instead of feeling free Maybe that's a blessing that is being disguised Overdosing won't be how you hear I died Using drugs; isn't a cure for pain of any kind It's only a substance that will fry your mind When it comes to healing your heart and your soul Try something other than dope; have some self-control