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The Next Chapter or “Season 26″

Today, marks the second year of the #SuperMarkBlog. I started this blog a year ago to give myself a place to post my thoughts and share content that speaks to me. 

It’s funny to look back on the last year of my life and see where I’ve ended up. Life at 25 was a scary and uncertain year, but looking at in after the fact makes me appreciate every single moment that much more. 

I finished my Master’s Degree program at Texas A&M University, moved away from College Station, had a few people walk out of my life, made a ton of new friends, experienced highs and lows, but what a year. 

I’ve gotten back to the basics and feel so much better about myself. 

It all starts with me. 

I want this next chapter or “Season 26″ to be the greatest one yet. 

No baggage and a fresh start. 

So these past few days have been a lot more... let’s go with enjoyable and memorable than they have been in a long time. 

If you’re reading this, you probably know me to some extent and know that I’m not a depressive or melancholy person. Sometimes you just slip into a routine and forget to live the life that is right in front of you. 

That’s exactly how I’ve felt since September. I haven’t been living my life to the fullest and that’s a damn shame. 

For reasons, that I do not need to or want to get into, I had to learn to be myself once again. 

You are probably wondering, “How do you get to know yourself? You are yourself?”

Well it is a lot more complicated (and simple) than that. I think I’ll get into this on another blog post. 

Back to the present and past few days. 

It all started with a SWAMP meeting where I got to hang out and talk with some old friends that I hadn’t really taken the time to converse with in about 3 years. 

It was nice and maybe kick started a series of events that would make me question what year it was.

On Friday, I got to enjoy the fine sounds of a band that basically jump started Bebop Media and provided an outlet for me to do my media thing. 

The Conglomerate, and all those dudes, played a reunion show in Downtown Bryan and I shot probably my final concert in this town. What a fitting way to end my time here. Then I got to hang out and just enjoy the evening. 

It was literally like nothing had changed and all these guys that I played music with while an undergrad just made things feel right again. 

It almost felt like 2012 again. The nostalgia bug was alive and well, but I took a great deal away from it all. 

I remembered how to live in the moment and love who I am. 

That’s such a cliche but I feel a sense of calm that I haven’t felt in years.

This naturally has carried over into my everyday life. 

On Sunday evening, I went to a mic check slam poetry/pie event with a few good friends. 

It was so enjoyable and also a bit nostalgic. 

The chilly evening air at Revolution in Bryan took me back a few years. 

In that moment, I knew that I didn’t have to live in the past. That this was happening right now. 

Life was happening.  

And I was enjoying it and soaking up every minute. 

So I did what any rational person who lives in the moment would do in this situation... 

I signed up for the open mic section and began to write a piece to perform on my phone. 

Yeah, slightly crazy, right?

Hell yes. 

But I wasn’t scared and I knew just what to write. 

So I took the stage and talked about what has been on my mind all these months. 

I got a good response but that’s not why I did it. 

I did it for me. 

And that felt good. Great even. 

I took the stage for me and did not worry what people thought. 

That’s who I want to be again. 

I’m not entirely there yet but it is a start. 

I’m going to be who I want to be and it will be great. 

So thanks to everyone this weekend who helped me get back to the right path that I belong on. 

It means much more than I ever can express.