#superior complex

Why am I feeling this? Biggest misconception: I'm not jealous. Jealous would mean that I want you. And I do not fucking want you. You bring out the worst in me, a side no one but you have seen. I feel like it doesn't matter how much time passes, or how much I try to sound convincing saying that I'm 'different now' towards you because to you those sides always show because you always bring them out so I can never prove how much I have changed. It doesn't seem like I have when it comes to you. I feel like I always go back to square one. I feel trapped. You're doing it on purpose. I told you over and over to just take everything you said back. And you won't do it. You run back to me purposely, claiming I am the one, feeding my horrendous ego. And then you leave. And I don't care that you do, I have no need for you. But You know what youre doing and that it's driving me insane. Countless letters, front and back, you profess your love. But what good are any of those words if they are all lies!?!? And god I don't even care that you don't mean them anymore, just take them back!!!! I'll admit it might be this superior complex that I had developed over you that is making me feel 'betrayed' by your words. My image as well, you are making me look like a fool. This must be your revenge. You know how to tear me back to my viscous ways and no matter how much I deny i have gotten rid of it, you know it's there. Just take everything back and I can be at rest. Say you didn't know any better, I understand I promise but just say it for fucks sake or I will constantly feel as if I am being lied to and betrayed and I know how this sounds.. god the cruelest part may be that I don't even love you so these feelings are not of a broken heart not at all I just can't .. can't have anyone claim they love me but then love another WITHOUT taking it back first. This sounds pathetic as i write it, and I know it is but I can't deny my mind is torturing me and I am being reminded constantly and I won't be as obsessed in a few days but it is always like this at first. See what you bring out in me??? Just take it all back..

in our own soils the black persona is belittled. // zintle ramano

We have the attitude of a rich rapper, “ IDGAF about what others think”. It makes sense because we are an individual based culture. We value what we personally think and couldn’t care less what people have to say. However, I have to argue that not considering the beliefs and words of others is not individualism, that’s superiority.