#sunventing

i actually do think the exorsexist bioessentialist terf brain rot is killing peoples brains because today my queer trans friend referred to all nonbinary people as "female aligned"

i keep trying to work out so i can get more muscular/get a more masculine physique as a trans guy but none of my friends believe i can do it. they constantly make fun of me for being skinny or call me a twink or make fun of how weak i am and it makes me feel like shit. i've asked them not to before but they still do. i'm trying really hard to work out and i enjoy working out but i can't enjoy it when my friends make fun of me or don't believe i can do it. i haven't done sports in several years while most of them have done some variety of sports so obviously i'm not as strong as them. i know i'm skinny and not muscular and not athletic but i'm trying i'm fucking trying and i wish someone would believe in me

i still think no one will love me if i can't provide anything. i still feel like a commodity

how do people deal with the fact that relationships are just doomed to end most of the time

how to make peace with the fact I will never be who I say I am: a guy, a singer, a good person

i tried really hard. i need you to know i tried

I want to be hurt. I need someone to hurt me so it isn’t my fault. I need it to hurt