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(via Beach Vibes Mounted Print by Lexipooh76)

Don't you dare say I'm gonna make it, cause I don't believe a word you say. There's a sickness living inside me. You can spare me on your sympathy. #TooCloseToTouch #sympathy #HaventBeenMyself #sunset #photography #sunsetporn #sunsetblog

Are given to us as we are following our paths. Some much more difficult than others. Heart, instinct, people, amongst many other factors play a big role in these choices. We constantly seek to make the choices that will make us happiest. Of course, in the end, we know not of the consequences (whether they be good or bad) that those choices will bring us. Surely, this is something that goes through everyone's mind at one point. Now, I'm at a standpoint in my path that is pushing me to a position where I'm going to have only one choice. All the advice given to me simply just seem to not be the guidance for helping me avoid these choices. I'm now pondering at the ocean as the sun is setting. A choice to follow through on a path that could lead to a world of hurt, a choice to re-lock my emotions away advice done for the past five years, or a choice to just act as though nothing has happened. I was told not to think to much, but I can't help BUT think right now. A fear for making choices that has always been hidden deep inside me. My last resort is essentially to seal myself back into the person I once was. I wonder what it is I'm scared of right now? I'm slowly drifting as time moves forward and brings me closer to that point of making a choice. I want help and I've always wanted help, but I can't stand the thought of burdening people. It's as though in the end, life has a way of handing me a most hurtful path. In such a short time, I just want to be rid of emotions that are leading and blinding me. Choices made me into a person who claims to be optimistic. Who am I kidding? Sometimes, I hope that this is all just a dream and that someday I'll wake up. On a final note, the matter of it all is.... how? -BDC