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-Oberon’s Talamasca-

Desperation is the fount- Anne Rice, Lestat Blood Canticle

Desperation is the fount

Degradation is the fount

Demoralization is the fount

If there is any indication

An ink line of a pen

Within the wren

Of anything, happening

It is the source of the fount

(yet) to what does it amount

Resounding storms

w/ in my eyes

I despise the cries

of torment and imbibe

the brides are bribes

From the tribe of immolation

Imitations hurt less

Than fantasy

Creates a calligraphy

Of me

Cuts to the center

Of the weight

The anchor at the drape

Of a daring mistake

Desperation is the fount-

I’m downloading GTA V to play lately. I’m not quite too sure if I’ve moved on genetically from WOW...it’s a transition. However, I’ve played GTA ever since it’s inception on a PS and I don’t feel like buying a PS so I’m going to work it on this laptop. 

My desktop is trashed..its ancient, and it’s in holding by my attorney over what happened years ago..so I no longer have that option. I miss my technology- but as things sometimes progress...they regress. 

I look forward to playing GTA and getting back into gaming. It’s a great stress reliever for me...slaughtering pixels.

My old fb and twitter accounts are lost to me forever..all those thousands of fans will have to find me an add me again as well. It’s really a pain in the arse when you have people out there that hack into everything and steal everything for who knows what reason other than trying to make themselves more popular and the sheer adrenaline of it. 

On an up note, I’m working with my PR again and things should get rolling in a few weeks as well as to me taking over the online universe again..in my own way- that is. 

Sure, I could talk about more ‘’personal” things on here...but I’d rather skirt the outside of what is important to me right now than to talk a bunch of blah blah blah about my personal life that no one really wants to hear about because they are busy living their personal lives. I could bitch up a storm but that is pointless. 

I’d rather focus on my more extraneous pursuits...like having fun. 

I’m still the ‘internet bitch’..but I’m a bit quieter now in my stasis than I used to be in past years. Granted, I still have my spirit..and it hasn’t been dampened...but trying to get things back up and rolling again is my focus...and it’s a lot when you used to be used to being inundated in ‘stuff to do’ every day. I have a long list of a few things...and so I’m going to be very busy. I have conventions to plan, books to write and one I am finishing up on “Paper Dollz”; and I might get into Urban Poetry a bit more with my experiences. I’m considering live readings and slams because I’m a hermit and I need to get out more (seriously I’m rather a private person despite my over exuberance at certain things) and although I was born a social animal- I’m rather selective with my sociability. In other words...I’m a geek. 

Taking  a break from the world didn’t daunt me in the least way- it fueled my fire and let me see a side of the world that I was not apt to see if I continued down my current  path. 

I’m seeing a lot more angel numbers pop up in my life now as well...and that’s a good thing. It’s like all my ancestors are talking to me and telling me everything is going to be ok..no matter how it seems right now. 

Have a great day. 

I was previously diagnosed with Manic Depression. Never mind which type- it’s irrelevant. Then I was diagnosed with Diabetes recently. Never mind which type- it’s irrelevant. Now I’m  NOT Manically Depressed but I’m just Diabetic (like I need another label besides the ever-present “BITCH”)- which is great- but I was wondering something. Regardless of the label one puts on us- I think we just are what we are. However, I was re-thinking the term “Manic Depression” and was thinking of Kay Redfield Jamison’s book “Touched with Fire” and how Manic Depressive’s and other people that have mental illnesses are creative (CLICK HERE). I bid that we change that negative term into something positive and use the term “Creatives” or as a collective “The Creatives” to coin Manic Depression in the DSM. Ponder that for a moment. Let me know if this has been done before- as I know there is no thought that has not been unthought of before quoth Mark Twain: “

There is no such thing as a new idea. It is impossible. We simply take a lot of old ideas and put them into a sort of mental kaleidoscope. We give them a turn and they make new and curious combinations. We keep on turning and making new combinations indefinitely; but they are the same old pieces of colored glass that have been in use through all the ages.”- Mark Twain

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