23 may 2026 // saturday
today i am one fifth of the way through my ochem course. i finished the first two chapters (17 and 18) and did the first self test this morning. i scored 66% on the first try, closed book. i feel kind of bad about it because i've been working so hard but i'm also trying to remind myself that is triple what i accomplished winter semester (yes, it went that badly). all i can do is keep working hard and keep moving. i finished 19.1 and tomorrow i'll start the background readings i need to do for 19.2.
work is going so well. i was really nervous this week because i had to submit my research protocol but my supervisor told me it was really good work and she was impressed!!! and multiple people have said i have so many skills. 🥹 honestly this praise is healing my inner child who was convinced he was never good enough no matter what (but possible because i have done so much therapy since then to allow myself to accept and believe it).
hard work pays off. i have to keep working hard.
