#sufist nonexistence

following my heart for so long, exhausted, to a place where I am not, here, with no location.

Not until I lost both self and world could I say, and it be said of me, Nothing. Neither this nor that.

-Rumi

If you cannot go with me on this way, I have no response to that decision.

Likewise, my being separated from Rumi, or my being reuinited with him, has nothing to do with my soul’s joy.

That comes from within my own nature, as does the pain I feel.

The difficulty that I have with living has to do with not being this or that, or that or this, or anything.