#subcarbon

written both specifically to finn and angela and marta and cindy and generally to all, and also to myself

so rmemeber how I was like wow I'm dying in Japan? well I figured out kinda why and the why is, I miss a place like new york and I hate princeton

all the things I hate about my college are at this city in Japan wherw I am

right so at Princeton I'm surrounded by rich white kids and rich white old people who need cleanliness and judge 400% all the time and it's a small-ass town and there's nothing to do and I'm too cool and poor for everyone so they judge me and I have no friends and also I'm dumb so I can't succeed academically

and here in Japan I can barely speak the language and I don't know the customs and I'm definitely too cool and everything is clean and there is order everywhere and I stand out a lot and everyone hates me /sobs

yeah it's the same

I went to Korea this weekend and I feel so alive because I was in Seoul and the streets are dirty and there are beautiful plastic surgery people everywhere and also old people and dirty people and foreigners and it was just really cool it was like being in Shanghai or Jishou or New York again, and everything was cheap so I could actually do things and there were actual things to do and just yeah.

I'm used to and love places where no-one really cares what I do and/or where they judge me explicitly. I thrive where there's a shit ton of people and I can slip in

and I just don't get that ehre I am in Japan.

I'm hoping that Tokyo wll be better because it's a big city but idk guys I'm suffering here

and it's terifying because I was banking on working here for the rest of my life but

I don't know that I can deal with being in a place where I am plain rejected all the time.

my friends from princeton, do you see my feels? I really suffer at princeton for the same reasons

Ah that sounds like a lot of fun!! 8D What kind of curry do you want to make?

IT IS BEAUTIFUL. ARE YOU GOING TO PLAY SOMETHING BACK AT THEM?

OH MY GOD I AM CRY

r u pikachu or r u pandora??

This is the essence of me.