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🎧: dinner & diatribes - hozier

I wanna become a very fluent and educated person who understands and articulates knowledge very efficiently. I want to learn and understand things very much and often too. I want to read the classics, fiction, non-fiction, biographies and anything I could get my hands on. I want to drink tea and coffee religiously infused with scented leaves and watch the sky through the window. I have the strongest yearning for a window from which I can see trees, birds in the sky and have wind slamming at my face as I open it. I want to see the gloomy weather and have a desk right beside the window while I study for an exam or deep dive into a topic I have hyper focused on. I want to read, read and read and unrot my brain and fill it with all the things I love such as painting and reading and sketching and being in the sun and in the wind. I want to be wild bird free from capitalism and have whimsy in every part of my cell. I want to read on the bus, in trains even when people judge me for it. I want to sketch and paint in parks and during my lunch break, while I am in queue. I have this yearning to just do things but I am held back by my chronic illness which doesn't ever let me have enough energy and this evil capitalism constantly trying to choke my neck. Constantly trying to suck the life out of me, which wants me to try and monetize everything which ultimately makes me frustrated and not touch it at all.

day 4/100

Texts and doodles (literally anywhere I can reach, I’m a child with crayon when it comes to doodles)