#stutterfly

So I realize that it is, uh, January 15th, and this is long overdue but I hope you all will accept my love anyways. Also low key wasn’t sure where to do this but I didn’t want to force one person to have to read through all my asks again so here we are. (Apologies in advance for my poor wording my mind is just a MESS).

I just wanted to say a huge, HUGE, thank you to y’all for all of TSE. Every single fic was an absolute masterpiece and I thoroughly loved each and every one. On their own, they were beautiful, but the fact that they were all also tied in to one huge overarching storyline was just incredible. The ways in which each of the stories crossed into one another was truly just *chefs kiss* perfect. It was so, so fun to read each fic and try and figure out the timeline and see what parts might line up and get more insight into different situations based on what member I was reading. I also was mind blown at the consistency between fics in the characterization of each member (particularly Jimin and his payment LOL I smiled every time). I’m usually super excited to read any fic that any of y’all write because I think you’re all phenomenal writers, but I had an extra amount of excitement for every time something was added to TSE because of how well y’all collaborated on this. Even though every fic had it’s own ~flavour~ it still all felt like it fit into one big puzzle that was TSE. Honestly, with the way every fic fit so perfectly, it seemed like you all must’ve sat in a room together and written it all at once it was that seamless. 

You know what’s not seamless? This. 

AH DISJOINTED THINKING I’M SORRY I knew parts of what I wanted to say and I’m no writer so I’m just going to jump into this next thing...

I really wanted to tell you all also how much I loved the way you wrote this group of friends. I know it’s BTS, but still (obviously) the build up of their relationship comes from your words. I’m going to get a little personal and deepish on y’all, but reading this collaboration really made me FEEL THINGS. I’m the kind of person who has a lot of one-on-one friends in the sense that none of my friends are friends with each other. I’ve never had a problem with it because I love them all so, so dearly, but wow this collaboration...this group of friends...I felt myself hurting because I felt so desperately that I wanted this family that you all wrote about. The atmosphere and the relationships that you all curated made me just stop and think, “I want that.” No joke, I texted my best friend immediately after and said, “All I want in life is to be able to go to a cabin with a group of friends and just sit by the fireplace and eat fancy dinner and have a good time and I want us all to be in very loving relationships and happen to all get along and love each other is that too much to ask.” And then of course, every time a fic was posted I had to text, “Ok but cabin?” Seriously, all I want is to live out this cabin dream that y’all wrote out (preferably with BTS but it’s fine). Please. Anyways, all that personal extra stuff about me because I just want to really emphasize how much this collab means to me. And idk maybe this is taking it too seriously?? But I really loved how much this made me feel and how much it made me reflect on my own life. I think the way you all write is really powerful and made a big impact on me this holiday season (or is it last holiday season...idk it’s 2020??). 

So anyways, in conclusion, thank you all so so much for your writing and for these fics in particular. I’m sure you all were very busy living your own lives so it really is so SO kind of you all to have written these fics and given the rest of us such a wonderful gift. I am a huge fan of all of you I hope 2020 is good to you.

^ me bc my heart is overflowing w love for u all (jk i know this pic doesn’t fit but i like to use it all the time)

Also if u read through this whole thing I’m so honored honestly it is a disaster and could’ve easily been written shorter but I just am incapable of doing so