LET’S TALK ABOUT FAILING (college)
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I’m sorry for every grammatical mistakes !
Hello, I’m Bruna and i’m 20 years old and I’ve been failing.
More than once, i failed two times.
Everything started when I had this idea about being an game concept artist where my family and my ex supported me a lot, which lead me to my first degree. I putted a lot of effort in these two semesters, I had GREAT grades and made some good friends. But in the end of the 2nd semester, everything started to fall apart. I couldn’t feel that sparkle anymore, I wasn’t excited at all about the classes and when I broke up with my ex, I realised it wasn’t my dream. I didn’t liked videogames that much, I couldn’t imagine myself in the next year working so hard in something that I didn’t like it, so, after a deep and multiple reflections, I dropped out.
I started thinking seriously about what I wanted to do with my life so I wouldn’t make the same mistake.
And it was worth it, sort of.
I applied to two colleges with completely different areas. The first one was related to Arts, their program was amazing, very solid. And the second one was only about literature and languages. I putted this one in the list because I’m really into books and always loved to learn things related to literature.
But my heart belonged to the college with an amazing study plan about arts. Deep down I was really hoping to be accepted there.
Like I said, I failed twice. I didn’t get in in my first option. But I decided to go and try my second option because for me, staying at home one year without doing anything sounded really bad.
And I regret it. After the first week, I didn’t make it. I was feeling really bad, sad, unsatisfied, getting up became harder and harder just to go to that place. So, once again....
I froze my application and came back home.
And now, here I am. I’ve been taking a few drawing courses online and i’ll redo my exams so I can have a good grade to apply again and hopefully be accepted. In this whole story, I ended up discovering that I want to be a Drawing or Painting teacher and a few more lessons.
First, everyone has their own time. It’s ok if you got in college later, its okay if you choose a year just to think and reflect, and there’s nothing wrong about not ending the college in 3 years and if you’re not happy with your degree, you don’t have to feel bad about it. It’s completely fine. If you have a chance to change, please do it for me and for you and change.
For those who got it right, i’m really proud of you! I can’t imagine your happiness but if you’re happy and satisfied, i’m also happy and satisfied with your choice!
Second of all, I know some families force their children to go to college after ending the high school and i’m really sorry about that and if you feel bad or unhappy, I can’t do much but I’m here for you. On the other hand, if your parents doesn’t put that pressure on you and you’re still reluctant about it, please stop. Stop and think. Picture your future in 10 years and imagine what you’ll be doing, where do you want to work, what you wanna do. But think deeply, dive into that thought and do not stop until you break down the surface and discover what would really make you happy.
I’m really sorry for writing something so long and probably with tones of grammatical mistakes but I know that somewhere, someone it’s struggling just like i did and i want you to know, you’re NOT alone.
With all of my love,
Bruna
