#studiousbunny

oh deer

hOOO boy. it’s a mess

so!!! it all started five years ago and i first met him through maths bc i sat next to him lol and then we both liked each other but neither of us wanted to make a move?? anyway so we eventually started texting each other and it was getting kinda serious and he told me he “loved” me and i just. ghosted. ik it’s horrible of me yikes but?? i just freaked out bc commitment is TERRIFYING (even though i literally think about love constantly lmao the idea of actually dating someone scares me a lot). anyway so we stopped talking for a while but we still had to see each other every day and we still kinda liked each other but i never wanted to advance past the crush stage with him bc i didn’t really want to be in a relationship with him… anyway it was v on and off up until a while ago and we were texting constantly and i was kinda into it?? idk i was like hey might as well give it a shot but literally as soon as i thought that he ghosted on me for like two weeks and it turned out it was bc he was talking to another girl bc she was “easier to get” than me (gross) 🙄  anyway after a while he started trying to message me again and i ignored all of his messages for like two months straight and he eventually got the message… but ya it’s just kinda awkward whenever i see him bc he somehow SNUCK HIS WAY INTO MY SQUAD and i saw him at christmas and he came over to talk to me and i just ughhhhhhhhh nope

tl;dr: i have commitment issues and when i decided to give it a shot this guy tried to play me lmao so i cut him out. it’s not that spicy tbh, just v draining