Urgh, I am not looking forward to Thursday which has not happened in a while.Â
I’m going to my placement school and, like usual, my partner and I have to plan a lesson. Which is fine, we’ve done it before and it’s always been successful but this week, I am actually feeling nervous about it, like more than normal.
The subject matter of our lesson is supposed to be Health and Wellbeing, to which we are doing PE since that’s what they would usually have during the day. HOWEVER, it’s also assessment week so our class teacher gave us a bit more direction on what to do but I am seriously lost.Â
My partner seems to have a better understanding and that’s fine... or it would be if we were actually going to meet up with each up before we actually go to the school. Like we were supposed to.Â
But instead, my partner emailed me with a full Word document of her plan and a message that she won’t be able to meet up. So I feel really confused, but also guilty because of my confusion as I feel like I am letting my partner down because I haven’t prepared anything (I had planned on looking up some ideas and then discussing them in person with my partner to figure out what would work).
She said in her email to add my own ideas to her document, but honestly? Her plan is full, according to her ‘timings’ and so I don’t know where I would be able to add any ideas I did have. I also can’t wrap my head around her plan and how she is envisioning the lesson going which means that I’m worried she’s going to end up taking control during the lesson (which I am fine with) but I fear that she might end up thinking that I’m lazy (which I am, to an extent) or don’t care (which I do) or that I’m just taking advantage of her.
It’ll all work out I’m sure but still, I’m feeling really nervous about this and everything and it sucks. I hate this feeling and I know I would feel better if we had actually met up and discussed face-to-face what our plan was but life isn’t fair.Â
