#striaghtedge

That I love chris-is-hardcore-fest  more than I love nachos? Now that's a powerful love, brother! 

The first straightedge boy I ever met:

a small cog in the great, silent machinations of my soul

a memory never forgotten

a handshake whose imprint I still feel on my palms.

He never liked me much,

either hated my guts or simply

overlooked my existence.

At first I thought it was the height of cruelty

when he told me "Take me off your heroes list--- I never asked to be your hero!"

But 8 years in,

8 years of I love you one minute

and fuck you the next

8 years of thinking I had a family

only to find out I didn't

8 years of trying to be a mentor

only to have them kick me in the teeth

I want to tell you I survived

I am still true

I am the only one

Fuck, I bet at this point you're not even edge

and I wouldn't blame you if you weren't

but I am.

I want to go back and say

I understand now why you threw me to the wolves

Why you didn't believe me

Why you wouldn't help or guide me or show me the way

8 years of trying to take in every sXe kid I knew

to prove I wasn't like you

and now I know you were right